Barely breathing

It's adorable how music really finds me and gives me comfort during my sickest moments. There is a special song for every heartache that I feel.

Two weeks ago I was "stuck on a verse" by Kate Walsh, but right now, Barely Breathing's the tune.

It's such a bitter and selfish song. But it just screams out loud some of the things I'm feeling right now. So does that mean na bitter na rin ako at selfish? Hahahahahaha. Joke time.

If only I could skip this phase and stop being this emotional. But I wasn't built that way. In my context, feelings always linger a little longer than they are supposed to. Give me two years to move on because a few months just won't do. I really could allot these emotions, time and thoughts to other people and other things para di na sila wasted. La la la. Wala na.

I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
It must've been that yesterday was the day that i was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious, you hafta ask me why
I say goodbye...

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I am kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the prize and worth the price
The price that I would pay

And everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? Only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, it's worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I'm thinking it over anyway

I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?
I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You Come and go
Please don't come and go

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the prize and it's worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I'm thinking it over anyway...

And I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear