Wise words from The Kid.

"Things will always turn for the better when they can't get any worse :)" (Dela Cruz, 2011)

Awesome.

Haters gonna hate

STUPID

EMOTIONAL

SENSITIVE

LIAR

STUPID

HARDHEADED

ASSUMING

STUPID

Anyare?

I am scared that I have not been myself lately. And now, I'm afraid to think that it's too late.

I have been slacking off, not doing things according to my usual standard. I have let my emotional self get the best of me. I was often distracted, defocused, dwelling on the more irrelevant things.

WHAT HAPPENED?

I mean, I've had the epic times with my loved ones, but I have left myself out in the process. I'm not even surprised to find myself kind of burnt out and exhausted.

Maybe I have the wrong priorities. Maybe even the wrong outlook in life.

Hopefully I'm still fixable. I can't afford to waste this time, this chance anymore.

P.S. Please include me in your prayers. Thank you BIG TIME!:)

Vent

I guess I just have to learn brush things off, especially when I have no control over them.

Filter the things that I see.

Wag na. Okay na!

More than enough na ang mga pangyayari for a week. Okay yun. Ayos.

The number you have dialled..

Toot. Toot. Toot.

February has been awesome so far. Hopefully this awesomeness will be there forever.

Kwento (and maybe pictures too) next time.:3

P.S. Just got home from my fourth UP fair. Sayang, my osom buddies weren't there, but I had fun with my other loves. Hahaha. Excited to see them photos taken by Bolle!:)

Twinkle, twinkle..

How I wish. How I really wish..

I just realized how hardheaded and spoiled I am. I want what I want, even if it's impossible. Sabi sa DG namin kahapon, this is another form of lust. A desire for something you know you can't have, (or will not have? HAHA). Alam ko na nga yung sagot sa tanong ko, pero waley. I'm still here. Hahaha.

Oh, nobody said it was easy. (The Scientist)

NR

Today's a winner day thanks to the LAE 2011 passers (congrats friends!) and the AZKALs. But not in one of the better moods tonight. I don't know why. Parang naghahalo-halo lang lahat ng depressing things sa buhay ko siguro?

'Twas my first time tonight to assist and (in a way) direct an almost love scene. Ang hirap pala mag-establish ng connection? Parang ang dali lang 'pag inimagine, pero mahirap pagdating sa execution. But I think it was a pretty good shot.:)

Wala pa ring balita sa thesis. WALEY. This is getting depressing.

I feel so useless.

Fudgee Barr

POTEK. Im'ma stop doing this to myself.

LIFE GOES ON DUDE.

STRUT AND IGNORE. HAHAHA.

K. Whatever.

Maybe I'm wrong.

Maybe I shouldn't worry anymore. This minimal excess stress will do no good to me anyway.

Sucks to be reminded that my place has been taken by somebody else. I feel irrelevant and.. okay, I won't let myself get started with these rants.

The feeling just sucks big time. I wish I could just make this feeling disappear. Being the second, maybe even third, fourth, or fifth choice totally sucks. So sucky I want to cry.

But I'm not going to cry over this again. Crying over spilled milk. Ugh.

I want to hate him but I can't. Whyyyyy

HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE ANYMORE.:((

A wise confidante told me that I should let the process happen naturally. I'm really struggling, promise. I'm really trying not to be pa-vague, not to be cold, not to push anyone away.. mali ba? dahil ba iba na ang mga situations ngayon, hindi ko na yun dapat gawin? Dapat ba ipakita ko na concerned pa rin naman ako, or hindi na?

WHAT THE HELL SHOULD I DO?

I worry too much.

Please don't make me worry. Please don't tempt me to call you in the middle of the night just because I think something's wrong (with you).

Talk to me and make me understand. You know me. I'll try to understand and absorb everything.

Can't wait to talk to you. Meanwhile, this blogpost will do.

'Cause when a heart breaks, it don't break even.

Dear You,

These the times that I feel most helpless about my feelings. I know there's nothing I can do except watch and wait anyway.

I just feel exhausted tonight. That's all. Maybe if you asked me a while ago how I was, if only you were extrasensitive to the people around you, maybe you'd notice that I'd been wanting to spend some time with you again.

A little assurance would be nice I guess. But who am I to ask that from you right?

Or maybe Barthes is right? There's always the "lover" and the "loved".

Oh well. I'm sleepy now.

Good night.

'Coz I just can't hide it!

I feel like an overprotective mother. HAHA. Nakakahiyaaaa. I didn't want the mems shouting at the apps. Parang ako yung naaapi para sa apps. WHUT. Hahahaha. Ewan ko ba. Nakakatawa lang.

Last night was epic.:) It was Tropang Radyo's first anniversary and all the katropas (except Dale) were there. Well, Dale was present via Facebook. Haha. We continued the celebration at Technohub after. Grabe lang. Talagang tinapos namin yung Feb. 1 bago kami umuwi. Parang walang klase kinabukasan! Yan tuloy, ang pangit ng boses ko ngayon. It was night of questions and asaran. Walang respetuhan, as in! Haha. But I loved every second of it as much as I love all the katropas. Hihi.:3

Today I was super stressed dahil sa BC 160 proposal namin. But God is really really good! Sir Guieb liked the concept that we proposed!:) Sana maging maganda yung execution namin.

I hope the stress levels of this week will go down and good vibes shall spread out. I have an exam tomorrow. PI 100. Hopefully I won't fall asleep while studying. Hehe.

Good night!:*

P.S. I'm excited again. Haha. For nothing. More HAHAs.