for the second time around.

ok.

sira na naman template ko. aargh!

wala na talaga akong panahon para ayusin eh. sorry.Ü

next, next week pa siguro, okie?

thanks for bearing with this. haha.

holidays on mondays. bitin.

ok. i admit. i have changed.

as a matter of fact, it was really my idea to change. at hindi para sa dahilan na iniisip mo. i changed because i had to. hindi na pwede yung parang shy at goody-two-shoes na outlook diba? pakapalan na ng mukha. wala kasing mangyayari sa akin dito sa upd kung di ako magbabago ng kahit kaunti.

anyway, enough about the i'm-changing stuff.

i had a fun-filled day kahapon with no other than my tbff: reg! (hello!) it has been months since we last saw each other. what's funny and weird is that parang kahapon lang kami nagkita. parang walang gap. siguro kasi andun na yung trust na we got each other's backs.

how i wish this di na matapos pa itong weekend. but sabi nga ni Eminem, "step back to reality." yun lang. haha.

kung sa i'm leaving on a jet plane naman, "all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go.."

haay. kakornihan ko talaga.

just grin and bear it. (ella enchanted)

hi alien!

math building atrium.Ü


last friday during our math1 class, i had this sort of weird conversation with Kem.

Kem: "Bianca, can i some onion skin." (paper yon ha.)
Me: (I stretch out my arm.)
Kem: (he points at my arm.) "that's not onion skin. that's human skin."
Me: "no it's not. i'm not a human. i'm an alien."
Kem: "oh. so which planet are you from?"
Me: "Neptune."
Kem: "ah. actually, i'm not from this planet either. i'm from another galaxy."
Me: "oh. so that explains your unhuman ways. and your unhuman words."
Kem: "yeah."
Me: "ok. let's stop talking about nonsense."
Kem: "yeah. we should."

wala lang. that's what you do when you have a professor who talks to the blackboard all the time. or perhaps out of boredom lang? No. we're really just crazy people. we're aliens nga diba? :)

btw, papunta switchfoot at fall-out boy sa Pinas! yey!:)

random thoughts part...basta!

liham sa freshmen. well, may project ako sa kom1 na deadline na sa thursday pero di ko pa sinisimulan. why? ang hirap kasi eh. i have to make this letter fro freshmen (duh?). what i'm thinking is frosh pa din ako. i haven't experienced the difference of being an upperclassman. gets mo? parang ang letter ko ay magiging based on what i see and syempre, sa mga stories na naririnig ko. haay.

worth the splurge. grabe! sarap ng choco chip flavored ice cream ng haagen daaz (tama ba spelling)! as in kahit you blow your pockets, worth it!

a simple act of kindness. wala lang. i just offered this mommy and this little girl a ziplock bag last friday on my way home sa bus. bigla nalang kasi sumuka yung little girl. kakaawa naman na sa towel siya susuka right?

on being bad. i'm bad. i've read a bad book. pero ang ganda nung book ha. sobrang exciting at ang cute nung pagkathriller effect niya. but i'm not telling the title. if i tell you, you'd be telling me i'm bad. as in ganun siya. title palang bad na. what's good naman about the book is it that it's not your typical love story na mushy. hindi rin sobrang hard-to-get. basta yun na yon! pero syempre, happy ending pa din, although mejo bitin.

showbusiness. leave angel locsin alone. she made her choice. what's done is done. sabi nga nila, move on. gwapo ni derek ramsay! haha. improving na din yung acting niya. nakakaaliw and entertainment live ha. magaling tandem nila bianca g, mariel r and toni g.

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oh well. it's going to be a busy week next week. so much for the emotions. btw, the pic below is from my kas1 class trip around manila. thanks lhenvil for the pics!Ü

boredom=good times!

sarap ng buhay, lalo na pag walang klase. haha! grabe, almost one week din yun ha. tapos what's funny is never naman umulan nung thursday. parang naging sign na nga eh. pag nagdeclare yung PAGASA na walang classes, hindi uulan and vice-versa. haha.

yan tuloy. todo tambay sa dorm. ang saya nga eh kasi i'm finally getting the hang of it. yung wala na masyado yung homesickness or yung feeling na i'm in dire need of company kasi isang knock lang sa other rooms, may ka chit-chat ako agad.Ü

like last thursday. since walang classes, todo bonding ako with new found friends specifically hannah and joie pati na rin pala with Cris. we decided to make lakwatsa since sobrang boring to spend the whole day sa dorm. since wala naman kaming money, we decided not to go to trinoma or even sa SM. meaning, ganon talaga kami ka-broke! haha. then i suggested na we go nalang to lola amparet's place para mas mura. imagine, free books and free food! due to another appointment, di nakasama si joie so ako lang at si hannah ang nagkaroon ng adventure.

that evening, nagbonding ulit kami. we bought pancit canton all because ayaw namin yung ulam na sineserve sa mess hall. arte right? sobrang enjoy kasi parang boodle yung nangyari. after the pancit canton, we bought strawberry ice cream (well, yung excuse namin was to wash off the aftertaste of the pancit canton. lame excuse.) and shared the love with Cris and Paw. o diba? how thoughtful, how goldilocks. ngeks!

after eating dinner, we played ice breakers. we got to know each other more, laughed at embrassing moments, corny jokes, shared emotions and views about almost anything! tapos, me, joie and nina stayed up till 2:30 am playing sims2. now, that's what you call addicts.

grabe. i'm looking forward to more of these nights.Ü

not on purpose.

i had a fun weekend thanks to the suspension of classes brought to us by the SK registration. haha. sounds like a tv ad.:)

natatawa ako sa sarili ko everytime someone asks me "musta na/how's college?" and i always answer them "ok naman/masaya/enjoy." parang sirang plaka. haha. well, totoo naman eh. i believe i am having the time of my life learning to do things on my own, meeting new people, and having new experiences. oh, there are those down moments especially when i think everybody else back at home. kaya nga super happy ako na i got to see my hs batchmates and friends last friday. as in mama even made it a joke na nakabalik daw ako ng lb before lunch, pero nakauwi ako sa bahay before dinner.

pero as they say, good things have to end at some point. while hanging out with my friends, i received an sms from a batchmate saying na nagbago na daw ako blah blah.

here's my point. i haven't seen them or talked to them for the longest time. parang for me, it's unfair to tell that someone has changed kung wala ka pang interaction dun sa tao na yon. you have no right.

looking at the opposite side, i might have changed. BUT NOT ON PURPOSE. diba one way or another you change because you need to adapt to a certain circumstance, or you are influenced by your new environment. jan nga pumapasok si conscience diba? that voice inside you head or that gut feeling you have whenever you aren't sure of your words or actions.

diba there's a quote that says "nothing in this world is constant except for change." it's hard to oppose change. i'd like to think na IF EVER i've really CHANGED a LOT, it would be for the better, not vice-versa.

i guess WE just NEED to TALK. right? saka kilala niyo naman ako eh. i would never want to trade my personality for someone else's. and i think no one's going to know me better and UNDERSTAND me better than my high school friends/batchmates. four years din yon.Ü

shucks, this post is becoming mushy and mushier by the second.

haha. oh well, siguro hindi matatanggal yon sa system ko. forever na akong ganito.
don't worry guys, hindi magbabago treatment ko sa inyo. sabi nga ng shout-out ni kriezl (if i remember it right),

"distance is never a reason to forget people."