What is happening?

I am so stressed out... which is really weird because I should so many thing yet I'm not.

I've gotta learn how to restart myself. Reshuffle the system. It shouldn't be like this.

Waa! I really wish that the sem would just end right now and I could go home and have fun like I always do. Hahaha. Pero for now pangarap pa lang lahat ng 'yan kasi exam week ko pa next week.

To think that my birthday weekend is coming up. Tsk tsk tsk...

I'm hating it.

NO, I should not hate it. I should learn to embrace it.

Restarting...restarting...

This doesn't make sense right? Hahaha. Bye.

As I was saying last night...

Last night, I was bloghopping (first time for this year) and I saw this very interesting post from one of my friends back in LB. She was ranting on how she was tired from all the school work; how she's working her butt off but still doesn't get any credit for it. Still, she fails. Haha. College nga talaga.

Lately, I have felt that I have not been my usual self when it comes to academic stuff. Back in high school, I was known to the most grade conscious person ever. As in I give full effort to all exams, projects, essays, may it be minor or major and in return, I always anticipated a high grade from my teachers. But lately, I have been satisfied with just merely accomplishing the requirement. Being satisfied with "okay" even if at the end, at the back of my head I'm still hoping for that high grade. Illogical right? Unless the "study = fail" equation back in high school really does work. Hahaha.

I'm trying to work things out considering na March na and in just three weeks, tapos na classes. God, please assure me that it's never too late...

Sabi nga ni Sir Reev sa BC101 class, we should never settle for okay. (pressure! pressure!)

Even with the stress, I have been enjoying my classes naman. I have been enjoying school in general. Although I think it was a big mistake taking up socsci2, natsci1 and comm130 all at the same time. I thought na I was ready to handle the three subjects all together even if it meant less free time, more readings and more exams. Boohoo. But I can't take it back na. Dropping period is over. Sayang 3K.

I'd like to say that I've finally assured myself that I am at the right course.:) I honestly enjoy my productions especially when it's my time to produce, or direct or whatever. I just hate conceptualizing programs. Parang nasestress ako just thinking about it. Speaking of conceptualizing programs, I have to think of or adapt a story that will fit a 7-minute radio drama. The script is due this Friday.

Tell me who's cramming? Me? Ya serious?

Haha. Seryoso. I really need that creative sense right now. I don't want to settle for another bakya story. I want a good story. As in, yung may sense pero gugustuhin mong pakinggan. Yung tipong hindi ko talaga malilimutan.

Ate Mai-mai once told me that if there's a struggle to change things, that means you know something is wrong and you are not satisfied with how things are. Does this mean that there's still hope in the middle of all these stress? Haha. This blogpost sucks.

Thanks for taking time to read the rants of a grade-conscious sophomore stuck in a struggle for change.:))


p.s. Thanks Rox for the picture!

Finally!

After a few months of silence, I'm back.:)

More kwento in the days to come. I'm kinda busy that's why I have no time to post yet. Who knows, I might just feel the urge to post about something random tomorrow.:)

Haha. Good morning!:)