i can't feel.

this just shows how busy i already am.

busy nga ba...

or just plain tamad?
haha.


wala masyado updates for november and december. they may be part of the busiest seasons of the year, pero wala akong gana magpost.:( too bad.

all the pics are in the multiply account. wait lang doon sa iba pa.


haay...i feel so numb. and pathetic.
i hate it.

di dapat ganito. pasko na.



anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!!


God Bless you!:)

killing time?

dahil laptop free ako ngayon weekend, i'm turning my attention to books.


yes ma, tama po nabasa niyo! haha. books.


i will be devoting my time to:


and





yung isa required. haha.
wala lang. maybe lesson na rin yon or perhaps message ni God na i'm just wasting my time.

shocks, may nakita pa akong connection. haha.

masyado na daw akong abusive sa laptop powers. masyado na akong connected kay lapoo as if nakastrap na siya sa lap ko. waha.

i'm so corny.

right??


hayaan mo na. im just sad today. being the cheerful nut that i am, tinatry kong aliwin ang sarili ko. so please bear with me.:)

“In vain have I struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.”

-Mr. Darcy to Elizabeth Bennett

be careful.

ok. so sira na naman ang laptop ko.

haay..


nagcrash na FINALLY yung operating system. so ayun. goodbye files.
okay lang mabura yung buong music library ko since may back-up ako nun plus pwede naman ulit madownload.

pwede rin naman makopya yung e-readings sa polsc14.

pwede ring i-reinstall yung mga games na mawawala.

sayang lang talaga yung pics na in-upload ko last night. ipopost ka sana sa multiply yon eh. pics yon nung comm3 class, UPD acad oval pag gabi and some pics nung prod comm sa Christmas presentation nila. sayang.. totally sayang.

i guess kahit gaano ka pa ka-careful mangyayari at mangyayari yan.
or perhaps, hindi pa sapat yung carefulness na ginawa ko.


i'm really sad for lapoo's fate.

tama.

lessons learned this week:

1) when you're guilty about something, confess/act right away. don't wait till things get worse. the guilty feeling will just eat you up.
2) do NOT take things for granted.
3) being busy is not a reason for forgetting important things.
4) don't think that other people are always judging you. they have their own business to mind.
5) keep ties open. you'll see that they're important later on.
6) don't wear long pants during rainy days.
7) if you don't know what to play in a party, "ever after" by bonnie bailey is always almost a sure hit. or perhaps "sexy back" by justin timberlake. and make sure you have lots of rnb tracks, they're sure hits too.
8) make time for your family. even if you've got the busiest schedule in the world, think of what's more important.
9) if you're next class is AS fourth floor, make sure you leave 30 minutes before the class.
10) try to keep your focus. be determined to reach your goal without any detours. well, distracting detours that is.
11) the word "awry" is pronounced as "oh-rye" and not "oh-rie". check the dictionary.Ü
12) whenever you feel bad, don't hesitate to call on your friends. the more you lock those feelings inside, the more chances that you're going to burst unexpectedly.
13) never think that you are alone. look above.

good night. and sorry.

i forgot..

di pa rin ayos si lapoo..

btw, lapoo is my laptop.

lapoo tapoo a.k.a. buddy..


and right now, he's infected by 300 worms/viruses.

imagine. 300?!

hannah, masyado malakas impluwensya mo!
waha. corny. i know.




btw, sorry sa red font nung last last post ko. super bad trip lang ako nun. hehe.
internet bill rising. time to evaporate from here.:)

till next time..

berserk.waha!

sorry. super busy lang talaga ako these days guys.

unang-una, "NO GRAY AREAS: Debate Tournament 2007". grabe, plug ba ito? haha. anyway, as usual, cramming to the max. i admit, super naging relaxed ako sa responsibilities ko as pubcom head last sem. kaya mejo nagkaroon ng problems, pero nasolve naman. nag-merge nga yung teams namin ni Mikh kasi pareho yung naging problem namin. pero great job guys! we know na hindi talaga kayo prepared that's why we understand. besides, walang experience. pero as they say, "you brought the house down!". di man concert yung nangyari, masaya pa rin. waha.

sabi nga ni riley, "hear! hear!"
just kidding.:)

remember the crs post? well, i'm not malas after all. so far mukhang i got great professors na feeling ko, sobrang dami kong matututunan sa kanila. i got Prof. Ramirez for eng11, Prof. Pilapil for polsc14, Sir Maximo for eng1, Mam Valerio for comm3 and Sir Abueg for math2. siguro kaya dinelay ni God yung registration ko, ay para makapasok sa mga klase nila! haha.. and guess what kung ano PE ko, CHEERLEADING! waha. i just hope and pray na magfit sa schedule ko yung dates ng games and concerts.:)

btw, there's this Fubu streetdance contest this Saturday at the UP Theatre, 5 pm. i'm not sure kung sa Saturday na talaga siya. basta..hindi ako pwede.

bakit?

kasi, Tita Vivian died last Saturday. malungkot man for the past few days, we know that she's happy up there. she died of cancer na super complicated na. i think parang consoling (tama ba?) factor na rin yon para sa family dahil finally, tapos na yung pain niya.

sa saturday yung cremation. saturday afternoon, siguro yung parang burial or whatever the term is para sa cremation. for sure parang magiging mini family reunion din yon. syempre, i want to be there!

di man kami super close na tita, we will surely miss her presence and her very sweet smile..:)

enough of the sad stuff.
i will really try my best to update this as much as katulad ng dati. though i know i can't really do that because of my limited resources.

Kalay Wi-fi! haha.

peace out.:)

pahirap ka talaga!

malas.

oo na. super malas ko na.

sayang pera. tsk tsk tsk..

i'm talking about my enrolment. kainis kasi, kulang ako ng isang subject.:( yan tuloy, di pa pwede mag-enroll.

one thing more, sobrang dumb-founded ako sa bagong enrolment procedure. puro online na kasi.

aargh!! nakakainis talaga. super sayang lang ang stress na nakuha ko sa pag-commute. sayang lahat.

oh well, baka may purpose naman si Lord dito. baka may lesson din. haay..

gtg.:) may dorm pa akong pupuntahan. waha.



btw, namiss ko din pala ang kalai. woosh!

i think I know the truth but the truth is I don't know.

remember when you were forced to write essays back in grade school (and even in high school)? tapos you had to answer that mind-boggling topic, as in you have to search every inch of your brain to find the answer.."What I Did During My Semestral Break".

haay..

i experienced my very first OFFICIAL semestral break last month. bakit? kasi, i'm officially a college freshman this year.

October 5. end of classes. yes, parang kelan lang na nagsimula ako ng aking first sem. haay. ang bilis talaga. thank God maayos naman ang naging first sem ko. imagine how blessed i was: easier subjects PLUS the good professors. waha.

October 6. Kalai Sem Ender. oh well. ok lang yung party. actually, mejo boring nga eh. boring kasi naging dance party a la disco siya nung end. hindi naman sa pagmamataas pero mejo cheap na siya tignan nung bandang huli. so we watched 'u can dance' instead. haha. great alternative pare.

October 10. boohoo. lumabas na results ng first batch run sa CRS. i got 0.0 units.:( anyway, thanks nina for looking at my results even if alam mo na password ko at mahahack mo na lahat ng accounts ko. haha.

October 13. after a week of pure bumming sa dorm, yes pure bumming. imagine: whole day movie marathons (yes, as in walang tulugan sabi nga ni kuya Germs..hehe), getting out of bed at 11 am just to eat lunch and chikahan all the time. haha. so sinundo ako ni mama and tita al sa dorm. ah, before that pala we had our kas1 sem-ender. yeah, i have to say na yung kas1 class talaga ang naging pinakaclose ako. as in eating dates, chikahan, etc. i will surely miss that class. so yun nga, we had lunch at Chocolate Kiss and i had spare ribs ata. yun lang. haha. i'm so mababaw. btw, bday pala ito ni Xai. Happy birthday Xai!!Ü

October 16. So yes, i'm back here sa los baños and i sure missed this place. seriously. haha. since sportsfest week sa CSI, my dear almamater, so todo support na naman kami ng batch ko. haha. joke nga ni mama eh, hindi pa daw naalis sa sistema ko ang pagiging CSI student. reply ko naman, namimiss ko ang activities, hindi ang classes. waha. anyway, i helped kriezl teach cheerdance for the freshies (since frosh din naman ang sister ko). may napuntahan din naman ang pagpersevere namin! 3rd placers sila! not bad at all.. Congrats Freshies!!Ü

October 22. Happy United Nations Day everyone! yes, UN Day has been a part of my school memories especially na i went to an international school. it was always exciting to see all those posh and magarbo costumes that the richer kids wore. of course, di mawawala yung flag-making. haay. i do miss school events. anyway, to think that the UN parade wasn't tiring enough, cheerdance competition pag dating nung afternoon. and yeah, i was THE make-up artist. haha. kung alam lang nila na unexperienced yung gumuguhit sa mga faces nila. haha. yes, i, your jologsness, am the artist and your face is my masterpiece. waha. i'm insane. oh well, i'm proud as i can be. di lang pang champion ang mga faces nila, pati moves nila! we were chatting ni emil one day tapos he said na mananalo daw ang freshies kasi yung batch namin (THE back-to-back!Ü) ang nagtuturo. sabi ko naman sa kanya, hindi yon sa nagtuturo, nasa talents at determination yon ng mga tinuturuan. *sigh*

October 26. So my activity for the week was the sportsfest. haha. i was even more active compared sa kapatid ko. imagine, i was cheering for them, wore batch color shirts, became a scorer for volleyball w/out the snacks, etc, etc. i was super excited to be part of the event. Congrats Seniors for being the over-all champs! our batch is proud na twin batch namin kayo!Ü

October 30. since bday ni kuya Jopoy, we had dinner at tita noh's place. karaoke to the max. haha. naabuse tuloy vocal chords ko. ngeks.

October 31. trick or treat, smell my feet, give me something good to eat. if you don't, i don't care, i'll just pull your underwear! namimiss ko na mag trick or treat. dati, when we were still living in UPCO, it was really a tradition na you go knock on houses during halloween kahit pa minnie mouse mask lang ang suot mo (ahem! ahem!). tonsilitis talaga abot namin after halloween. i miss those days.:)

November 1. ito ang first all saint's day na hindi kami pumunta sa cemetery after a looong time. mejo sick kasi si mama kaya we stayed AND bummed dito sa bahay. haha. btw, Happy Birthday Joiee!

Ngayon.

what about now?

ang bilis. pasukan na.

ayoko pa.

actually, okay lang magpasukan na.

kaya lang, ayoko pang umalis ng los baños.

after a very long time.:)

I MISS MY BLOG.

i don't know what to post.


let me think for a while.

a very cold Sunday to you.

di pa ako naglalunch. pakainin niyo ako.

guys, reminder lang:

I am not insane.

haha.

tuesdays and fridays are fun-filled days.:)

who are you?

diba masarap ang pakiramdam ng hinahug? as in yung tight. tapos super close mo pa yung tao.

what if malamig yung panahon tapos he just goes there to hug you for no reason. just because.

tapos ikaw, super relaxed. hindi yung tensyonado and conscious dahil hinahug ka ng isang guy. in fact, sobrang sarap pa ng feeling mo. parang nalimutan mo na lahat ng problema diba?

eh what if...di mo kilala yung tao. pero feeling mo super close kayo and that you've known each other for a long time.

haay..panaginip. i need an explanation.

sino ka ba? bakit ka nasa panaginip ko?
you are freaking me out.

i hate this feeling. i don't even know that guy. pero why is it na parang kilalang-kilala ko na siya?
aargh!

parang you seem so real yet you're not. have i met you before? have i even seen you before? bakit kelangan blurred lahat? YOU are really making me feel funny. and uncomfortable.

my question is...why? for what purpose?

long overdue.

grabe, i'm getting busy and busier by the minute. at least may calming factor na malapit na ang sembreak diba? so these are the things that i've been busy with this week.

• palarong pinoy sa kalai. as in..."wala kaming cheer! wala kaming cheer! manigas kayo dahil wala kaming cheer! D! dilaw! I! ilaw! L! law! A! aw! W! wow!" though some of us feel na undeserved ang third place (lalo na kapag champion kayo sa 2 out of 5 games!), at least we had fun right?
• picturan forever. yes, love ko na talga si olympus. lahat ng panget pinapaganda. lahat ng maganda...well, gumaganda! just check my multiply account for them.
  
• harry potter! since nabigay na ni kem (sa wakas) yung book 4, na hanggang ngayon di ko pa nababasa pero nabasa ko na book 6 and a little bit of book 4, nahook na naman po ako. di lang yon, nag movie marathon pa ako! ayos diba? hanks kem and nica for lending me the HP stuff!:)
• Kas1 finals! yes. tapos na! easier than expected pero i don't think na i did my very best. mali yung pagprioritize ko sa mga sasagutan. yan tuloy, nagmix yung feelings of happiness and regret.
• econ11 3rd exam! well, let's say na super good news yung results.:) there may be a possibility na hindi na ako kukha ng finals.:)
• postponed ang socio10 finals! as in more time for preparation!
• report for kas1. tinatry namin not to make the report long and lecture type kasi nga naman, halos tapos na ang sem! i'm assigned to Manuel Roxas. haay. we can do this!
• i attended a super super interesting forum last wednesday about the constitutional clock being stopped. guests were Atty. Alan Paguia (revealed Hello Garci tape and an ex-atty of former President Erap) and Dr. Zeus Salazar (Pantayong Pananaw, guys!). it was really a great forum kasi ang daming concepts na naintindihan ko. parang reading between the lines yung nangyari.
• postponed KAS1 fieldtrip!! haay. sayang talaga. sayang.
• debate orientation last wednesday right after my make-up class. there was event his mock/informal debate whether upperclassmen should be allowed to be residents in kalai which is recognized as a freshie dorm. grabe, super init nung naging pag-uusap pero nanalo yun government. i'm really looking forward to this debate. go dg! go hannah, kat and gwen! kaya niyo yan.
  

at ngayon, mawawalan na ako ng money dahil 2 hours na akong nasa comp shop. haay. i miss internet.:(

pics and other updates next time!!! ciao.

God bless you today!:)

an old schoolmate of mine sent me this chain message in friendster. i hope na its message inspires you today as it has inspired me also.:)

1. Give God what's right -- not what's left.

2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end! -- God's way leads to an endless hope.

3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.

4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.

5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma--but never let him be the period.

6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.

7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.

8. When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty.

9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.

10. We don't change God's message -- His message changes us.

11. The church is prayer conditioned.

12. When God ordains, He sustains.

13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.

14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.

15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.

16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.

17. Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord.

18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.

19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.

20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.

21. He who angers you controls you.

22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.

23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.

24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them..

25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

-Isaiah 40:28-31

the battle is the Lord's..

sabi kanina ng pastor namin:

"The BATTLE on Earth is a battle of CULTURE.."

true enough...:)

yes i am.

"Real Girl"

by: Mutya Buena

If I had one chance to

In my life again

I wouldn't make no changes

Now or way back when (yeah)

And if everything turns out

The way I hope it goes

But I cant wait to find out

What it is that God knows

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl

I know exactly who I am

And nothing's ever perfect

There's no guarantee

And if I knew the answers

It would put my mind at ease (no)

So I'll just keep on going

The way I've gone so far

And maybe I'll end up

Tryin' to catch a fallin star (yeah)

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else '

Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl

I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am

Don't need you to understand

'Cause everything is right where it should be

It wont be long til you know about me,

'Cause I don't give a...

Even when I'm out of love

'Cause everythings just how it should be

And it wont be long till you know about me

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl

I know exactly who I am

-lyricsmania.com

la vida es dulce.

praise God...

...i am home this weekend.

...for the fun-filled and successful pubcom team-building-slash-bonding-slash-party last night.

...for dormmates who make me really happy.

...for the GMs i receive anytime of the day. even if i don't reply, the simple thought that you guys remembered me (even for a split second) makes me feel extra special.:)

...for those who view my profile and blog. simple gestures that make my day!

...para sa mga producers ng MOBY! cheap thrills!

...for the extended project deadline sa kas1 and moved exam sa econ11!

...for a very successful report sa socio10 and a not-so-successful but still okay report sa kom1. thank God for those great ideas, eye-openers, brilliant theories, etc.

...for the jogging sessions. kahit no effect pa, it was nice to see the campus na wala pang tao early in the morning (although traffic na yung papuntang katips..). sarap ng fresh air!

...syempre, the piano sessions. thanks to hannah and ria, i am now able to appreciate (kahit na little bit lang) ang Jpop. haha. pati na rin ang makapanood ng first part ng Samurai X na movie.:)

...dahil may internet sa bahay! i can read showbiz balita. haha. seriously, i can check updates from my friends (na i haven't seen for YEARS).

...for life. for waking me up each morning. for making me feel loved and making me feel special. for the people around me. for everything.

even if it's sort of weird, everything kind of falls into its own perfect place.

haay...the perfect puzzle.:)

my marrying age..guess what?

TAKE THIS QUIZ TO FIND OUT WHAT'S YOUR MARRYING AGE IS:

I know how to make a pot of coffee. instang lang ha.
I keep track of dates using a calendar. it's important.
I own more than one credit card.
I know how to change the oil in my dad's car. hindi yan uso sa Pinas.
I do my own laundry.
I vote every election. minor pa lang ako!
I can cook for myself. pancit canton, here i come!
I think politics is exciting.
I balance my checkbook. nothing to balance. haha.
My parents have better things to say than my friends. MOST of the time.

I show up for school/college/work every day early. well, i used to.
I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
I've never gotten detention.
I have never smoked a cigarette.
I have never gotten completely trashed.
I have forgotten my own birthday at least once. never!
I like to take walks by myself. kelangan may kasama talaga.
I've watched talk shows. duh?!
I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
I drink coffee at least once a week. not in my system.

I know how to do the dishes.
I can count to 10 in another language. Spanish counted?
When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
My parents trust me.
I can mow the lawn. hindi rin uso yan sa Pinas.
I can make adults laugh without being stupid. well, most of the time they laugh at me for being so corny.
I remember to water the plants. never kong nagustuhan ang pagdidilig.
I study when I have to.
I pay attention at school/college. well, i have to.
I remember to feed my pets. duty yan ng kapatid ko!

I can spell 'experience' without looking it up. funny.:)
I work out on a regular basis. bato-bato sa langit, tamaan wag magalit. (me: ouch!)
I clean up my own mess.
The people at Gloria Jeans know me by name. i've never ever been inside Gloria Jeans
my favorite kind of food is take-out. NO WAY.
I have gained weight since middle/high school. kelan ba hindi?
The first thing I do when I wake-up is get caffeine. once again, not n my system.
I cant go out of the store without getting something I don't need.
I understand political jokes the first time they are said. depends.
I can type quickly.

I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour. di nga lang every hour eh.
My only friends are from my place of employment. not employed yet.
I have been to a tupperware party. i'm not sure.
I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job. that's SO not true!
I have more bills that I can pay. thank God this doesn't happen to me.
Most of my friends are older than I am.
I can say no to staying out all night.
I use the internet every day. not anymore!:)
My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while. i need to do some shopping! but a wait a sec, where's the cash? ma? haha.
I can read a book and actually finish it.

so this quiz supposedly tells you what's your marrying age?

again.

so this quiz supposedly tells you what's your marrying age?

isn't it pathetic?

but look who's taking the quiz: me.

therefore, i'm pathetic?

haha.

my score: 24.:) hey, ang bata ko pa.

**thanks abs for the pics.Ü

for the second time around.

ok.

sira na naman template ko. aargh!

wala na talaga akong panahon para ayusin eh. sorry.Ü

next, next week pa siguro, okie?

thanks for bearing with this. haha.

holidays on mondays. bitin.

ok. i admit. i have changed.

as a matter of fact, it was really my idea to change. at hindi para sa dahilan na iniisip mo. i changed because i had to. hindi na pwede yung parang shy at goody-two-shoes na outlook diba? pakapalan na ng mukha. wala kasing mangyayari sa akin dito sa upd kung di ako magbabago ng kahit kaunti.

anyway, enough about the i'm-changing stuff.

i had a fun-filled day kahapon with no other than my tbff: reg! (hello!) it has been months since we last saw each other. what's funny and weird is that parang kahapon lang kami nagkita. parang walang gap. siguro kasi andun na yung trust na we got each other's backs.

how i wish this di na matapos pa itong weekend. but sabi nga ni Eminem, "step back to reality." yun lang. haha.

kung sa i'm leaving on a jet plane naman, "all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go.."

haay. kakornihan ko talaga.

just grin and bear it. (ella enchanted)

hi alien!

math building atrium.Ü


last friday during our math1 class, i had this sort of weird conversation with Kem.

Kem: "Bianca, can i some onion skin." (paper yon ha.)
Me: (I stretch out my arm.)
Kem: (he points at my arm.) "that's not onion skin. that's human skin."
Me: "no it's not. i'm not a human. i'm an alien."
Kem: "oh. so which planet are you from?"
Me: "Neptune."
Kem: "ah. actually, i'm not from this planet either. i'm from another galaxy."
Me: "oh. so that explains your unhuman ways. and your unhuman words."
Kem: "yeah."
Me: "ok. let's stop talking about nonsense."
Kem: "yeah. we should."

wala lang. that's what you do when you have a professor who talks to the blackboard all the time. or perhaps out of boredom lang? No. we're really just crazy people. we're aliens nga diba? :)

btw, papunta switchfoot at fall-out boy sa Pinas! yey!:)

random thoughts part...basta!

liham sa freshmen. well, may project ako sa kom1 na deadline na sa thursday pero di ko pa sinisimulan. why? ang hirap kasi eh. i have to make this letter fro freshmen (duh?). what i'm thinking is frosh pa din ako. i haven't experienced the difference of being an upperclassman. gets mo? parang ang letter ko ay magiging based on what i see and syempre, sa mga stories na naririnig ko. haay.

worth the splurge. grabe! sarap ng choco chip flavored ice cream ng haagen daaz (tama ba spelling)! as in kahit you blow your pockets, worth it!

a simple act of kindness. wala lang. i just offered this mommy and this little girl a ziplock bag last friday on my way home sa bus. bigla nalang kasi sumuka yung little girl. kakaawa naman na sa towel siya susuka right?

on being bad. i'm bad. i've read a bad book. pero ang ganda nung book ha. sobrang exciting at ang cute nung pagkathriller effect niya. but i'm not telling the title. if i tell you, you'd be telling me i'm bad. as in ganun siya. title palang bad na. what's good naman about the book is it that it's not your typical love story na mushy. hindi rin sobrang hard-to-get. basta yun na yon! pero syempre, happy ending pa din, although mejo bitin.

showbusiness. leave angel locsin alone. she made her choice. what's done is done. sabi nga nila, move on. gwapo ni derek ramsay! haha. improving na din yung acting niya. nakakaaliw and entertainment live ha. magaling tandem nila bianca g, mariel r and toni g.

***

oh well. it's going to be a busy week next week. so much for the emotions. btw, the pic below is from my kas1 class trip around manila. thanks lhenvil for the pics!Ü

boredom=good times!

sarap ng buhay, lalo na pag walang klase. haha! grabe, almost one week din yun ha. tapos what's funny is never naman umulan nung thursday. parang naging sign na nga eh. pag nagdeclare yung PAGASA na walang classes, hindi uulan and vice-versa. haha.

yan tuloy. todo tambay sa dorm. ang saya nga eh kasi i'm finally getting the hang of it. yung wala na masyado yung homesickness or yung feeling na i'm in dire need of company kasi isang knock lang sa other rooms, may ka chit-chat ako agad.Ü

like last thursday. since walang classes, todo bonding ako with new found friends specifically hannah and joie pati na rin pala with Cris. we decided to make lakwatsa since sobrang boring to spend the whole day sa dorm. since wala naman kaming money, we decided not to go to trinoma or even sa SM. meaning, ganon talaga kami ka-broke! haha. then i suggested na we go nalang to lola amparet's place para mas mura. imagine, free books and free food! due to another appointment, di nakasama si joie so ako lang at si hannah ang nagkaroon ng adventure.

that evening, nagbonding ulit kami. we bought pancit canton all because ayaw namin yung ulam na sineserve sa mess hall. arte right? sobrang enjoy kasi parang boodle yung nangyari. after the pancit canton, we bought strawberry ice cream (well, yung excuse namin was to wash off the aftertaste of the pancit canton. lame excuse.) and shared the love with Cris and Paw. o diba? how thoughtful, how goldilocks. ngeks!

after eating dinner, we played ice breakers. we got to know each other more, laughed at embrassing moments, corny jokes, shared emotions and views about almost anything! tapos, me, joie and nina stayed up till 2:30 am playing sims2. now, that's what you call addicts.

grabe. i'm looking forward to more of these nights.Ü

not on purpose.

i had a fun weekend thanks to the suspension of classes brought to us by the SK registration. haha. sounds like a tv ad.:)

natatawa ako sa sarili ko everytime someone asks me "musta na/how's college?" and i always answer them "ok naman/masaya/enjoy." parang sirang plaka. haha. well, totoo naman eh. i believe i am having the time of my life learning to do things on my own, meeting new people, and having new experiences. oh, there are those down moments especially when i think everybody else back at home. kaya nga super happy ako na i got to see my hs batchmates and friends last friday. as in mama even made it a joke na nakabalik daw ako ng lb before lunch, pero nakauwi ako sa bahay before dinner.

pero as they say, good things have to end at some point. while hanging out with my friends, i received an sms from a batchmate saying na nagbago na daw ako blah blah.

here's my point. i haven't seen them or talked to them for the longest time. parang for me, it's unfair to tell that someone has changed kung wala ka pang interaction dun sa tao na yon. you have no right.

looking at the opposite side, i might have changed. BUT NOT ON PURPOSE. diba one way or another you change because you need to adapt to a certain circumstance, or you are influenced by your new environment. jan nga pumapasok si conscience diba? that voice inside you head or that gut feeling you have whenever you aren't sure of your words or actions.

diba there's a quote that says "nothing in this world is constant except for change." it's hard to oppose change. i'd like to think na IF EVER i've really CHANGED a LOT, it would be for the better, not vice-versa.

i guess WE just NEED to TALK. right? saka kilala niyo naman ako eh. i would never want to trade my personality for someone else's. and i think no one's going to know me better and UNDERSTAND me better than my high school friends/batchmates. four years din yon.Ü

shucks, this post is becoming mushy and mushier by the second.

haha. oh well, siguro hindi matatanggal yon sa system ko. forever na akong ganito.
don't worry guys, hindi magbabago treatment ko sa inyo. sabi nga ng shout-out ni kriezl (if i remember it right),

"distance is never a reason to forget people."

all smiles.

thanks for making my day!Ü

**updates next time.**

KISS.

promise, this wouldn't be long. haha.

someone asked me kanina why do i make long posts. actually, i ask myself the same question.

• reason #1: i'm talkative. (period)
• reason #2: since i'm far from family and friends, it's usually the only way that they can be updated with what's going on with my life.
• reason #3: it's YOUR free pass to my thoughts and feelings! something like a backstage pass.Ü isn't that great? haha.

so far, those are the only reasons i can think of. syempre yung reason #2 yung most important diba? or is it reason #3? haha!Ü

average everyday singing psycho; super goddess

i just read my friend's blog and well, i sort of agree with her. parang i've finally adjusted with my "new" life. i used to think na i'd be forever depressed because of so much memories from high school life. yeah, i know it's too much drama but it's true. but then i realize na slowly i'm finding myself enjoying my life now. yeah, i miss high school but i'm having the time of my life now in college.

yes, no one can replace my friends back in high school. they are family. but that doesn't mean na i can't find new friends right? at the back of my head, i have this guilty feeling kasi i don't talk or see my HS friends anymore. i don't text. i don't message them. i'm not updated with their lives anymore.

but i've realized...that doesn't make them less important right?

all i know is that i try to talk to them as much as i can. problem is, smart ako, globe sila. nasa qc ako, dito naman sila sa lb. we don't catch each other online. haay. kaya ganun nalang ang tuwa ko nang maabutan ko si joy na online kahapon. i learned na may sleepover pala yung iba kina emil. how i wish i could've joined them kaso pagod talaga ako. AND weekends are family time now specially na wala ako most of the time. understandable naman yun diba?

i'm just worried that maybe the distance and the time apart would somehow affect the relationships established. sana hindi.

in short, i just MISS them SO much.Ü

anyway, i've been enjoying my time with my new found friends there!Ü as in late night chats (not to mention loud laughter), business talks (haha!), lunches and dinners, classes together, joke times, short chats during rush times, etc. grabe, just the mere fact na magkaklase kayo in whatever class, may instant connection agad! natuwa rin ako kasi sabi nung ibang corridor-mates ko, ang first impression nila sa akin friendly daw, as in approchable. ayos diba? haha. tapos, sobrang privilege pa na nasa third floor ako kung saan napakaunited namin. as in i wouldn't trade it for any other floor kahit na pahirapan muna bago ka makarating sa room mo. haha. i just love the bonding that we have kahit na sobrang different yung mga personalities namin.Ü

maybe living in Diliman isn't bad after all..?

LSS.

"Listen"

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen,
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh, the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen....

Listen,
I am alone at a crossroad
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I gotta find,
My own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out,
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

my own... -Listen by Beyonce Knowles

based on statistics..

what a day.

yeah.

finally, tapos na first exam ko sa Econ11. ewan ko ba bakit super nervous ako. i mean, nakapagreview naman ako. ah ewan! siguro dahil first exam ko siya...haay.

kasi naman eh, si mam briones, nagpost ng exa results sa y! groups namin. it stated the following:

For everyone's information. .. here are some statistics based from the exam. Most did good, some didn't.


TJ1
MEAN 42.83
STANDARD DEVIATION 4.28
MEDIAN 43
MODE 46
MAXIMUM 51
MINIMUM 35

who knows...baka ako yung 35. haha.

haay. i'm so pathetic. bakit ba sobrang grade conscious ako ha?
nakakainis na ako ha..

lalalalala...

i was supposed to share with you a not-so-wholesome story..but i changed my mind.

anyway, my life has been great for the past few days.

first reason, my kalai friends!!! yes, sobrang natutuwa ako sa newfound friends ko sa kalai. for some reason, i instantly felt at home with my "corridor-mates" kahit na came from different places. i'm so happy na i was able to find Christian dormmates. oh diba, saya! what's more is that magkakatabi lang yung rooms namin! haha. last night nga, hannah, joie and me acted like crazy people. laughing here and there. siguro yun yung epekto ng kapeng barako..haha! btw, the kapeng barako was a freebie from the UP Batangan org. grabe ha, publicity na ito.

second reason, i was able to call my high school friends which sadly became the reason kaya naubos ang load ko. but they were worth the call.

OMG. this is drama.

haha. anyway, i was able to talk to xai, yuki, raffy and gem. tapos biglang naubos yung load ko. so because i missed them so much, nagload ako ulit. buti na nga lang at nag reload ako kaya nakausap ko si jers, mikhail and kevin. grabe! i really miss my HS batchmates..

third reason, renewed relationships. what's done is done. forget the past. move on 'cause more things await me.

fourth reason, exciting classes! last thursday, we really had a bizarre class sa socio10. our prof wanted us to think critically. he wanted to provoke our feelings. so instead of doing his usual s***, he went to the good side aka the pro morality and Christianity side making himself a hypocrite. we were discussing kasi our views on same sex marriage. My classmate said na yes, it could be taken into consideration but our society is not ready for it. kahit ano pang liberlaization ang mangyari, we would always remember our traditions, our beliefs. we would always put our values first.

another fun class is kas1. contrary to what others think that kasaysayan is boring or whatever, i actually am having fun in the class. as in i'm surprised na every 4 pm during mondays and thursdays, i'm really looking forward to going to PH 329, kahit na sobrang exhausting umakyat dun, just because i'm excited.

fifth reason, my blockmates. i think we have grown closer now that a month has passed. syempre, our MTh meetings by the main lib helps a lot.Ü

sixth reason, the FRESHIE CONCERT! grabe, lumabas talaga yung pagkafan ko. imagine: kjwan, kitchie nadal, sugarfree, yeng constantino, 6cyclemind, sandwich, callalily, chicosci, rocksteddy, parokya, kamikazee, etc plus all the freebies!Ü grabe, starstruck talaga. btw, there's another concert coming up this July 17, 2007, 6 pm at the bahay ng alumni. Bigaten din yung bands such as bamboo, spongecola, hilera, sugarfree, chicosci, etc.

seventh reason, first time kong pumunta ng trinoma! haha. sooooooooo probinsyana. my tita told me that as time passes, uunti din daw yung people doon 'cause the shops are so class A and B, as in somewhat expensive to SUPER expensive, so one would rather go to SM to shop for cheaper stuff.

eighth reason, i am home this weekend. iba talaga pag nasa bahay ka lang noh? ibang klase ang relaxation.

yeah, that's about it. happy monthsary nga pala fellow iskos and iskas! one month na tayo! still surviving the UP jungle. haha.

i guess i've adjusted somehow. wala na masyado yung feeling of homesickness. more of excitement na nga eh. i'm really glad all of this is happening..Ü

**hannah, dadalhin ko yung piano pieces next week. promise. tapos wag ulit tayo magbayad..haha! joie, see you men. (gets? haha.) feve, i'll be looking forward to more of our late night chats kahit tulog na mga roommates natin.Ü pau, your eccentricity is so contagious! there's a reason to be excited during math class gawa niyo ni Kem! haha. jk.**

...♥

slogans etc.

i was reading past bulletins sa friendster when i saw this link: www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi. type your name inside the dialog box then click "sloganize." these were the HILARIOUS results..

four out of five dentists recommend BIANCA.

solutions for a small BIANCA.

the BIANCA goes straight into your head.

the BIANCA of confidence.

choosy mothers choose BIANCA.

you'll never put a better bit of BIANCA on your knife.

hope it's BIANCA, it's BIANCA, we hope it's BIANCA...

if you can't beat BIANCA, join BIANCA.

BIANCA, take me away.

a BIANCA works wonders.

hand-built by BIANCA.

happiness is a cigar called BIANCA.

refreshes the BIANCA other beers cannot reach.

i've seen the future and it's BIANCA-shaped.

you're never alone with a BIANCA.

is BIANCA in you?

every BIANCA helps.

once you stop, you just can't pop BIANCA.

it needn't be hell with BIANCA.

life should taste as good as BIANCA.

things happen after a BIANCA.

for a hard-earned thirst, BIANCA.

savour the flavour of BIANCA.

change your whole BIANCA.

there's only one BIANCA.

promise. yung last one lumabas talaga.
then i tried the movie quotes part. isa toh sa mga lumabas.

This BIANCA attracts Those We Do Not Speak Of. You must bury it.

weird. haha.
beware daw oh.

go on, try it. it's fun. shocks, parang commercial tunog ko dito ah? haha.

blah thoughts again.

well, dito na naman ako..actually, blank ang mind ko right now. like i could stare at this computer in front of me still, wala pa rin akong masasabi.

haay.

sana may internet sa kalai...in that way, i don't have to waste money in order to blog or to update fster/myspace/multiply, email, etc.

sobrang dami ng nangyari these past two weeks. and yes, as usual, wala akong time (and money) for updates. freshie concert (yes! more about it in the future.:D), new found friends, renewed relationships, nerve-wrecking classes, new responsibilities, more about the blah dorm food, etc. etc. etc. btw, my eyes are getting used to wearing the glasses..heehee.

haha. maybe this weekend. promise!:)

ciao!

clueless.

bakit ganun ang friendster? wala naman akong sinesend na message na ganun. bakit may nareceive yung FRIEND ko, foul words pa yung nakalagay. hello? wala talaga sa ugali ko ang basta-basta nalang magura ng ganun lalo na't walang dahilan.

i hope she understands. sana lang wag maging close agad yung mind niya. feeling ko kasi she judged me agad. kasi naman eh, bakit walang internet sa kalai. eh di sana matagal ko ng nareplyan yung message! nakakainis talaga! panira ng araw!

i hate this feeling. i feel so dumbfounded.

sorry. pero di ko talaga alam.

bloc=LOVE ♥

ang weird nung last post ko. haha. and that was a few minutes ago.




kakauwi ko lang this morning 'cause last night, CMC held its acquaintance party with the theme FRESHure rising. I really had a great time with the other freshies and of course, the other people at CMC. dami pa freebies. haha.



i am really enjoying my time with my blocmates. as in lahat sila! and i'm sure it's the same with them. let the pictures do the talking.

looking forward to more events together.Ü

btw, sorry. tinatamad ako mag-update. maybe next time.

blank.

magpapadala ba ako?

compromise?

stand up?

think about it?

tagged!

okay...so you tagged me.Ü

Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who got tagged need to write a blog entry of their own 6 weird things. They should as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1. I've never been confined to the hospital. not even once.Ü
2. I like pickles, especially with fried fish.
3. I LOVE reading and answering surveys.
4. My left eye is bigger than my right eye.Ü
5. Nakasmart pa rin ako kahit all my friends are globe na! (pero may globe sim naman ako.)
6. I'm OC. dapat may certain arrangement talga mga bagay-bagay kahit pa nakapatong lang yan sa table.

ok. i tag you pam, xai, reg, yanna, kriezl and joy.Ü

feel the rush. haha. tunog gatorade.:D

yes! tinuruan na ako ni papa magmotor!

at last...pinayagan na akong kumuha ng student license (kaso nakakatamad naman.)...

haha. i really had fun yesterday afternoon. as in umaambon and all those effects, still, tinuruan ako magmotor. though kelangan pa ng MORE practice... (as in LOTS ha) mejo natutunan ko naman yung basics such as pag start at pagpatay ng motor, shifting gears, breaks, revving up, etc. but i still need to learn WHEN to shift gears.

ay, di ko pala nakwento. last friday afternoon, i went home alone 'cause camille will be staying at mandaluyong for the weekend. when i was already at the bus headed for sta. cruz, papa texted me na i would just go down nalang sa may olivarez becuase he's buying something at maquiling hardware. so i replied ok. so we arrived na sa may olivarez, i got down the bus and walked towards the store. then this blue motorcycle kept blocking my way as if iniintend talga niya na masagasaan ako. the someone called me, "Biancs.." i looked and was surprised to see na si papa pala yung nakamotor! yes...may motor na ulit kami!Ü kaya pala hinaharangan niya ako..

we dropped my stuff dito sa bahay, as well as greeted my grandparents who are staying for a vacation here. then we went to csi (yes, csi!) to fetch ea. sobrang naexcite nga ako eh. when we arrived there, i went straight to the faculty room 'cause i was expecting kriezl to be there. sadly, wala siya doon. but we still saw each other kasi nasa chapel pala siya! haha. i really missed my bestfriend. hay nako..

yan...so i've been spending quality time with my family this weekend. masaya naman. sobrang bitin nga lang.

i wish magkalapit lang lb at diliman. in that way, di ko na kelangan mag-impake later at umalis pabalik dun. hay buhay.

kaya nga wish eh...minsan lang talaga magkatotoo. miracle pa nga minsan kung magkakatotoo..

whaat??!!

listen!

We speak to nations, be open
We speak to nations, fall on your knees
We speak to nations
The kingdom is coming near to you

We speak to strongholds, be broken
Powers of darkness, you have to flee
We speak to nations
The kingdom is coming near to you
We speak to you
Be free, be free...

-We speak to nations by Judy Jacobs

wala lang. missions awareness sunday kasi kanina sa church.

just inspired by the song.Ü

time to fly.

ok. so i haven't really posted about my fist week at upd. ok naman siya, that's what i usually tell everyone. well, true naman.

June 9.

17th anniv nila mama and papa! yes! 17 na sila...Ü anyway, we had this half of 2007 celebration dito sa bahay. ibig sabihin, this includes: my dad's bday, papa's arrival, my bday, graduation blow-out, ea's bday, pagkapasa ko sa UP, going away party and last but not the least...yun nga, anniv nga ng parents ko. so parang 50 people weree here in OUR house. imagine? nagkasya sila dito?? haha. and did i ever mention na mga kabatch ko sa church ay halos guys lahat...? na sobrang enjoy naman. haha. i enjoyed the night. as in sobra. to add to that, i watched happy feet with the kids AGAIN. sobrang kyut talaga ni MUMBLE. haha. "(referring to his tapping feet) I guess they're happy too.."

June 10.

lipat time. we left the house at about 8:30 am and we went straight to diliman. and since it was a sunday, nagchurch nalang kami sa VCF. after that, we went straight to UP Coop because suuuuuuuuuper hungry na kami. as in 2 slices of bread lang ata kinain ko for breakfast? anyway, we ate fast kasi nga hinahabol namin yung dorm orientation which was going to start at 1:30. nahabol naman namin. Mukha namang okay ang magiging life ko sa kalay. after that, we checked in, g-313 nga pala room ko. perfect nga yung site nung room: di masyado mainit, far from the busy cars, faces the garden. well, except na nasa 3rd floor siya. and to think na natapos na ang pagpapahirap ng pagpapakyat sa 3rd floor nung highschool. well, here it goes again..lols.:D

After carrying HUGE bags up to the third floor, we went to SM north to buy the other things na kailangan ko. Grabe, hindi na talaga nabawasan ng people ang SM north. haay.

then it was time. time for them to go home and leave me sa dorm. i really felt alone. in fact, i cried. i cried out of depression. i cried 'cause i was sooo afraid and nervous. i cried out of loneliness. i didn't want them to leave me there. it just made me feel like i was in prison.. as i closed my eyes that night, i imagined myself inside my bedroom...thinking that i was still in lb. still in highschool. still with my family and friends.

June 11.

i woke up with puffy eyes. yes i did. anyway, i was now as official resident of kalai. i texted camille if she already had breakfast, (thank God di pa.Ü) then we went to the Coop to eat. since i didn't know anybody there yet, and i was too depressed to walk around the campus grounds, i cleaned my room nalang which turned about to be super exhausting kasi sooooobrang init! then i noticed na yung arrangement nung stuff ko doon ay same arrangement din ng stuff ko dito sa bahay. ayos diba? good thing na rin na dumating si Ria, roommate ko. i guess sila ng mommy niya ang nagsave sakin from insanity. joke!Ü we also had our first corridor meeting that night. mga basic rules lang and announcements since kulang pa yung mga residents sa 3rd floor. siguro sa sobrang exhaustion, ang sarap ng tulog ko nung gabing yon.

June 12.

YES. first day of classes. So dahil frosh pa kami, merong freshmen welcome assembly and we had to walk all the way to the UP theatre together with the ROTC band which was bte, EMBARASSING. i met two people sa line ko, si jamie (clothing tech) and si hannah (secondary educ). finally we arrived dun sa theatre and guess what, may special treatment para sa mga taga-kalai! as in pinauna kami sa loob kahit na last kami dumating. great diba?Ü by college ang seating arrangements, and halos wala pa akong kakilala. tapos bigla kong narinig yung guy sa likod ko na cmc din college niya. so binalikan ko at tinanong ko kung anong course, film pala. anyway, so tabi nalang kami. Buti nalang may dating classmate si Bryan na taga broadcomm din, si Genelie. thank God! may kasama na ako sa wakas.Ü fun naman yung program. as usual, tinuruan kami ulit ng UP pep squad ng mga cheers and chants. example...

matatatapang...matatalino...

walang takot kahit kanino...

hinding-hindi magpapahuli...

ganyan kaming mga taga-UP!

hehe..wala lang. anyway, what surprised us was the protest about the privitization of UP and the increase in the fees paid by the students. as in right after the pep squad, umakyat sila sa stage together with their flags, banners, etc. tapos they asked the students to join the protest. kinuwento ko nga kina mama, and then she told me na part talaga yan ng UP life.

after that, we had our bloc meetings and college orientation once again. as i've told you before, BROADback yung name nung bloc. why? kasi daw, we will bring tidal waves to broadcast communication..naks. haha. anyway, 22 yata kami sa bloc. BROAD ASS yung bloc handlers namin and i think marami silang activities instore for us. marami nga sa blocmates ko kinoconsider na magjoin sa kanila, pero sobrang daming tests daw bago ka makajoin. sayang nga 'cause i've missed two bloc activities: the studio audience thingy and the media tour. kasi naman eh, may klase ako. anyway, sobrang enjoy talaga.Ü

so that's what happened during my first day sa up. btw, eto yung sked ko.

mondays&thursdays: 8:30-10:00 SOCIO 10, 1:00-2:30 KOM 1, 4:00-5:30 KAS 1.

tuesdays&fridays: 8:00-9:00 ECON 11 (lecture), 10:00-11:30 MATH 1, 2:00-3:00 ECON 11 (discussion; tuesdays only).

wednesdays: 10:00-12:00 PE 2 BW-T.

sobrang luwag right? well, intended talaga yon dahil sa simpleng rason na master crammer ako. haha. promise, magbabago na ako dahil alam kong di pwede ang ganyan.

i'm getting used to my new daily routine. nakakatawa kasi lakad ako ng lakad kasi di naman kelangan magjeep. sa math building lang dahil sooooooobrang layo niya. pero in fairness, nag-eenjoy naman ako. sometimes, i get lonely lalo na pag nakikita ko yung mga grupo-grupo kasi in a way, naalala ko barkada ko. eh nakakainis kasi di ako pwede magglobe, so wala akong nacocontact sa kanila masyado, y!m lang.

so far, di pa mabigat ang academic requirements. siguro kasi first two weeks palang. marami pang time para makipagbonding sa new found friends. good thing na rin kasi pinakilala ako kay ate mai-mai. and in a way, may mga matatakbuhan na ako dun.

sabi nga nila, iba daw talaga ang environment don. sa csi kasi, sobrang sheltered at spoonfed. doon, exposed to everything. yung prof ko sa socio 10, si prof gerry lanuza. yeah, he's a very good teacher. as in sobrang maeengage ka sa discussions niya. pero syempre, there are those times na magmumura siya, or give bastos na examples. according to him, he's a "Christian atheist." weird right? sabi niya, he's an athiest because he believes God is dead and that he has left us alone in this earth. which contradicts his other statement where in he defends God. he bad-mouths those philosophers who try to measure God and explain His existence. he says that his God is immeasurable by logic and cannot be explained by reasoning. which is very much true. another thing pa, he says that he doesn't believe in true love among humans. para sa kanya, only God can provide true love, and that is agape; for God loves us no matter what we look like or do unlike sa love natin as humans. there's always an interest when it comes to loving another person.

i'm quite challenged in his class, but i enjoy his discussions. lagi kasi niyang target mga Christians, and well, uh, science. but so what? maybe this is a test of faith? who knows..

so i guess i'll just have to update more about my UP life. anyway, i'm just starting. everyday is a new experience, full of surprises and new things. and i'm also excited to meet new people. hehe.

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly...

-Graduation by Vitamin C

cheers to my journey ahead!Ü

tama.

HOME is where the HEART is.

♥

it'll be worth it.

ok..

so my college life has just begun.. nung una sobrang tense ako at the same time excited kasi i have no idea kung what awaits me. pero mukhang magiging ok naman ang lahat.

sobrang homesick na ako. sobrang namimiss ko ang lb. sobrang wish ko na kasama ko friends ko. minsan nga, sana nasa csi pa din ako eh.

haay.

buti nalang may mga naging kaclose ako agad. thanks kem, charm, justin at gen! pati na rin sila camille, ria, janine, jt, tato and the rest. and thank God for blocs. haha. btw, guess what the name of our bloc is...BROADback! haha. tapos we made a music video sa song na SO YOUNG kahapon all in cowboy-ish outfits.. it was suuuuuper fun. super tiring na din..

more updates this weekend. sobrang naeexcite na ako umuwi ng lb! 2 subjects to go for this day, kom 1 at kas 1...haaay.

1 day to go tapos...

UWIAN NA!

that's my peanut.

so kamusta naman ang life ko..?

oh well, everything's pretty the same..

today, i received my first paycheck. i created my first atm account. and i deposited money in my first account. waw. kamusta naman yon? haha.

last sunday, we went to walter mart (CALAMBA..layo noh?) to have some family time. bonding! and yes, soobrang daming tao. actually, our main purpose was to make my towels (yung dadalhin ko sa dorm) initialled. but since it was yaya's day-off (she went to alabang), we decided to spend the rest of the afternoon there. We watched pirates of the carribean:at world's end and boy, was it hilarious. grabe, suuuuuuuper galing ni johnny depp. WAHA! just thinking of jack sparrow makes me laugh! Syempre i wont forget orlando bloom na kahit mas bagay sa kanya yung elvish looks niya sa lotr, gwapo pa din..haha..

and for you guys na manonood nun..don't leave the theatre pagkatapos ng movie. at the end of the credits, may epilogue.Ü

yes. sadly, sunday lang yung most significant day of the week ko. parang walang significant or hilarious events na nangyari sa ibang araw eh.

malapit na pasukan...wala lang..hehe.:)

one of a kind. haha!

i just saw this bulletin sa friendster kanina. wonder if it's true..

MARCH BABY

Attractive personality. Outgoing and friendly. Wild at times. SEXY. Affectionate. Intelligent. Secretive. Naturally honest. Generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Funny and humorous. Sensitive to others. Positive outlook. Flirt. Independent. One of a kind. Easy to talk to. Amazing kisser.. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

kamusta naman toh..haha!

crazy misconceptions.

What do you have?

Mother duh?
Father eto pa isa...DUH??
Sister
Step-sister or half-sister
Step-brother or half-brother
foster sister/brother
Brother i WISH..
Nephew
Niece
Cell phone
Own bathroom actually i was supposed to have my own bathroom. but then, i was given the choice: own bathroom or own room?
Own room
Swimming pool yung inflatable lang.hehe.
Hot tub actually, ordinary bath tub lang siya. but of course, pag turned on yung heater...eh di..
Guest room otherwise known as the ATTIC.Ü
Computer, Laptop or Desktop
TV in your room wish ko lang.

TOTAL: 10

Full size or bigger bed
More than 8 pairs of shoes
Sunglasses hello? sobrang cheap na kaya ng eyewear ngayon..
Watch guess how many watches i have..
MP3 Player/iPod
gamecube in my dreams.
Xbox
Xbox 360 as if..
Nintendo Wii
PS 2 or 3

total: 3

Basketball hoop
air hockey table
Pool table
Ping pong table
Foosball table
Trampoline
swing set

TOTAL: 0 proves na hindi talaga ako sporty. hehe.

Nightstand
Stereo
DVD player in bedroom
Have something from abercrombie and fitch or hollister
Ever shopped at AE
Parents give you money duh? allowance..?

TOTAL: 4

Job student pa lang ako.
Goes shopping a lot hehe. splurge and splurge.Ü
Expensive cologne/perfume
AOL/AIM
Camera phone or camera

TOTAL: 3

Guitar/Drums/Bassguitar/ukulele/gh1 or 2
Piano/Keyboard
Any other instrument
Hammock
Traveled out of the state traveled out of PROVINCE?
Had a personal trainer
Expensive jewelry
Met a celebrity si na yan implossible nowadays..

TOTAL: 6

Straightener/curling iron
Have $100 on you right now but not on my wallet.
Credit card or atm card, debit card soon.Ü
Been to Bermuda
Been to Deleware
Been to Florida
Been to Disney World i WISH.
Been to Myrtle Beach
Been to Las Vegas
Been to the Bahamas
Been to South America
Been to Alabama
Been to Tennessee
Been to a restaurant
Been to Kentucky
Been to Asia hello? Asian?

TOTAL: 4

Parents have/had at least 4 cars
been on a jet ski/boat
Been camping
Been to 3+ states in the US never been out of the country.
Parents own more than one house

TOTAL: 2

Home cooked meal almost every day as in EVERYDAY.
Been in a Limo
Been in a helicopter
Own a camcorder
Own a laptop/computer
Been to a dance
Have a purse/wallet
Have 3 working computers in homewith Internet
Been in an airplane

TOTAL: 6


1-23 -- Ghetto
24-33 -- Average
34-42 -- Spoiled
43-100 -- Way upper class

10+3+0+4+3+6+4+2+6 = 38 = SPOILED??

what if you're just really blessed?

mind status: i'm confused.

it's funny when you remember all the things you did during your elementary days. ngayon, iniisip ko tuloy napakachildish ko. haha.

yesterday, nakipagmeet ako with some elem batchmates to discuss plans for the reunion. i was about to say much-awaited kaya lang, most of my CSI batchmates aren't that excited to see other batchmates YET.

siguro there's the factor na lagi kaming magkakasama sa CSI at hindi pa nagkakahiwalay. tapos sila, they went to other schools, met new people. in short, they started all over again.

haay. ang labo.

maiba naman ang topic. so natira kami nila kae, aryan at kriezl. we still stayed at blue tang and we continued talking about stuff you don't need to know about. eh since i brought my camera, we started taking pictures like crazy! as in, camwhores. hehe!;p

i missed those moments. as in sobrang namiss ko presence nila.

♥

..?

ang bilis..

summer is almost over.

bagong school year na naman.

btw, bukas na last day ng sort-of summer job ko.Ü

haay.

bitin pa rin. haha.

ang bilis..



summer is almost over.



bagong school year na naman.

haay..

BITIN.

sobra.

bitin. bitin. bitin.

lols.

wala akong maisip.

...you were the first on who fell asleep and the last one to wake up. you hated the meat lovers pizza kasi sabi mo, you might be inflicted with mad cow disease. and you brought the curlers and hair accesories.Ü

...tayo yung umupak sa meat lovers pizza kasi ayaw ni pam and yes...i think we finished 8 slices!:) i remember we went out of the tent kasi it was so HOT. then, narinig natin yung tuko..pasok agad tayo sa tent! hehe.

i miss these days.

♥

istarbuks kami kasi sosyal kami.

food tripping with xai, yanna and yuki. (check links for their blogs.Ü)

actually, there's a story behind those photos. maybe we were just pissed off with those poses na pinapakita na they're drinking a frap from starbucks. as in emphasized yung logo ng starbucks ha..tapos half nung face lang nila ang kita. or people who would take a picture of their feet and upload them sa net just so everyone can see that they're wearing havvies (havaianas).

haay.

so cheap.

haha. i have nothing against them. i'm just irritated by those shots.

anyway, had fun with yuki, xai and yanna as we tried to fit our faces sa cam ni yuki at the same time making usre na kita yung gulaman and fishballs na kinakain namin. nakakatawa talaga.

btw, ISTARBUKS was termed by yuki.Ü