bdays w/ lotsa LUV.

so i know, march 30 na ngayon at hindi ko na birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLO LUIS! waw, 81 ka na!

but i forgot to post about my day.

so here it goes.

so my birthday fell on the date after the play. and if you read my last post, you'll know that we won some awards right? haha. galing ng timing.

so as i was receiving the award for best director, the people inside the gym, or perhaps my batchmates and friends, kinantahan ba naman ako ng happy birthday. i had mixed emotions, whether maiiyak ba ako or matatawa or mahihiya...EWAN!

anyway, so yun yung start.

i usually feel nothing during my birthday. parang, it's just an ordinary day...so what? i woke up and did my usual morning routine. then, may nakita akong biscuits, yung ritz na may cheese spread sa may dinner table. gift pala ng kapatid ko. haha. sweet right? syempre binati din ako ng parents ko plus ni yaya with matching tight hugs and kisses.

so i went to school. i was SUPER late. ther was this orientation thingy happening. someone from Southville Foreign Schools was talking about how good the school is plus all the job offers you can get. their student admissions woman, i assume, approached me after her well, convincing speech. nasabi kasi sa kanya na i was a candidate to be the valedictiorian. all of a sudden, she was convincing me to go to their school.

excuse me.

'm perfectly happy with the way things are. my mind is set in going to diliman. kahit pa gano kaganda yung school or lahat ng offers nito, my heart is excited for the adventure college life in diliman will be bringing.

so NO thank you.Ü

so after that career orientation, mam malenab came up front then asked everyone to sing to me happy birthday. sobrang overwhelmed na nga yung puso ko eh. two public greetings?? sabi nga nung anak ni aga, "what more can you wish for?"

i just felt loved that day. di ko kinailangan magpapansin or whatever. i was just sooooooo happy. so many people made my day.

btw: thank you sa lahat ng bumati sa akin...sa personal greetings, texts, calls, testi sa friendster, comments...LAHAT! i ♥ you all.

that evening, we went to Tagaytay. we had dinner at this place called "Buon Giorno." syempre, the food was super yummy and all. kasama din namin sina tita al at si ninag lu. it was too cold pero we were warmed by each other's company and laughter.Ü

So i received two gifts that night. isa galing kay tita al...a reporter's notebook and LOTS of blue books. as in nalunod ako! haha. tapos. i received a blue things-carrier from ninang lu, one of my most thoughtful godmothers.

thank you po!

i also finished reading yung Second Summer of the Sisterhood at Girls in Pants. the second book was okay. mejo boring. but the third book sowed more maturity in it. nice right?

now, i'm waiting for the pics to upload. tagal sa dial-up...haha. parinig. dsl! dsl! dsl!

i'll post later pa. lots of things to tell you guys. kayo na mga nagbabasa nito! wait lang, kayo or ikaw? haha. unti lang naman nagbabasa nito.

para sayo na nagbabasa nito, thanks for making my day!

may klase pa ako ng 1:00. practice nalang naman for grad.Ü
excited? not really. pero happy.

tagal nung pics!! next time nalang yun, k?

thanks din xai sa comment. btw, just read your blog. sabi nga ni Jamie kay Landon, "Lighten up." haha. kidding.

now that i know that the comment box is working, common and leave me some comments aryt? show some love..haha.

post later.Ü

it's been a looooooooong time.

so my blog hasn't been that updated...

sorry sa mga nagbabasa kung meron.Ü

anyway, i've been really busy for the past few weeks at the same time relaxed. first things first.

03.20.07

so that was the playdate for pur english play a walk to remember. if you read my archives, you'll see that i had a hard time motivating my groupmates. as the director, it was my job to lead them and of course, set an example. all the work paid off naman.

CONGRATS SA ATING LAHAT. GREAT JOB! WORTH ALL THE PAGOD...CONGRATS TO:

ALL OF US...FOR BEING THE BEST PLAY. best director too.Ü

JOHN...FOR WINNING BEST ACTOR

KRIEZL...FOR WINNING BEST ACTRESS

REN...FOR BEING BELIEVABLE IN HIS ROLE.

CHANO, DIANNE, RICO, VERO, MIKHAIL,ADRIAN...FOR BEING SUPER EFFECTIVE SA ROLES NILA.

APRIL AND RAFFY...FOR BEING SUPER OKAY SA IMPROMPTU ROLES.

NICOLE, ANNA, RAFFY, KRIEZL, VERO,ZAIRA, XAI...FOR A GREAT 'FAKE' CHOIR.haha.

JESSICA AND KEVIN...FOR BEINGRESPONSIBLE KUNWARING-PARENTS

XAI, MAEANNE, ZAI, BENOK, CG, IRIC,SIEG, BIANCA, ETC...FOR MAKING ASIMPLE ROLE OF AN EXTRA A BIG DEAL.

ABIGAIL...FOR BEING SUPER RESPONSIBLE SA MONEY MATTERS AT SA TAWARAN.Ü

APRIL, MIKKI, CG, ETC...FOR MAKING THE PROPS AS WELL AS SETTING UP THE SCENES.

JONA, DIANA, ANNA, NICOLE,ADRIAN...FOR MANIPULATING THE LIGHTS AND SOUNDS

KEVIN, IRIC, ETC...FOR HELPING IN THE PREPARATION OF SCENES.

MINJI AND SIEG...FOR CLOSING THE CURTAINS WITH ALL ALERTNESS AND PRESENCE OF MIND.

DAVID, SHIM AND JOSEPH...FOR PROVINGTHEMSELVES, HELPING IN THE TRANSFERRING OF PROPS.

PATTI AND XAI...FOR PREPARING THE WARDROBE.

REN, ADRIAN, MIKHAIL AND COMPANY...FOR CREATING THE GIANT DOOR

MAM MILLARES...FOR THE MAKE-UP CHORVA

MAM DAVID...FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT AND LIBRENG DONUTS.Ü

JESSICA...FOR THE 2.5 INCHES THICK SCREENPLAY.

YURI...FOR THAT IMPRESSIVE VOICEOVER.

SA LAHAT...FOR BEING RESPONSIBLE PRODUCERS OF THE SHOW. IMAGINE, 200 DIN YUN?

PHILMAR...FOR HELPING US WITH THE LIGHTS AND SOUNDS.

DUN SA DALAWANG KUYA..FOR HELPING US SA LIGHTS AT SA DISCOUNT.

MAM VILLAMAYOR AND MAM ODUCAYEN...FOR BEING THE CRITICS AND HELPED US MAKE OUR PLAY BETTER.

MAM ROSALES...FOR GIVING US THIS OPPORTUNITY.

JOHN ULIT...FOR LENDING HIS SCOOTER KAHIT NABAGSAK PA YON.

KRIEZL, ZAI, IRIC, ADRIAN, ETC...FORWORKING HARD KAHIT NA NAGKASAKIT PAKAYO.

MR. TALLAFER...FOR LENDING HIS LAPTOP FOR US TO USE.

MAM MALENAB, BIANCA, ETC...FOR LENDINGYOUR USBs PARA SA FILES.

SA HAGGAI PEOPLE...FOR PATIENTLY WAITING FOR OUR PLAY TO FINISH.

GOD...WHO GAVE US THESE TALENTS,STRENGTH AND RESOURCES. HE DESERVESALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY.

SA LAHAT NG TUMULONG SA AMIN...THANKYOU!!!GOD BLESS SA LAHAT!

they made my day.Ü

my bday cake...with LUV

you never realize how important you are until your birthday comes. haha.



just a theory.


i was just so happy yesterday. and the day before that.





i was super kabado last tuesday. kasi nung gabing yon, ipapalabas na yung play namin. we were so NOT ready. to me at least.

everything was still a mess. imagine, nung morning, may math aptitude test pa kami?? hello? we had a play to set up that evening. but anyway, i had fun shading all those circles, literally. mas nagconcentrate pa ako na ma-shade fully yung small circle imbis na pag-isipan yung problem. haha. crazy me.

right after the test, we decided to have an early lunch break para maaga din kami makabalik at maiwasan yung lunch traffic. so we ate at kfc with mam david. saya nga eh, she even ordered doughnuts for us. haha. swerte namin! malas nung di sumama.

that afternoon, grabe pagcramming namin. as in, lahat kasi ng butas nakita. walang costume si ano, sira yung ano, sino magmemake-up, ayaw gumana ng ano...WAAH! sobrang worried lahat. lalo na si John, eh siya pa yung lead role. suuuuuuuper tense siya.

everything was going well, make-up and costumes ready. sakto nga naman sa timing, sinabi sa akin ni jona na two at of the four lapels are not working properly. swerte nga naman. so si john at kriezl lang yung may clip-on. the rest, umasa nalang sa boom mic.

as a proof na we were so not prepared, yun yung first time namin na gawin yung play without stops together with lights and sounds. ayos right? mejo pumalpak lang yung timing nung sa sounds pero ayos pa din.

It was longer than expected. we started mga 7:00 pm and it ended mga 9:00 pm. imagine, two hours kaming stressed and worried. at the same time naman, two hours din kaming pinakilig ni John at Kriezl. they were really really great! as in tama sila. i just needed to trust the whole cast that they would be doing their thing. eveything else will be just fine.

in the end, we got the best actor, best actress, best director and best play awards which was really not expected. ewan ko ba, ang baba ng tingin ko sa sarili ko for the past few weeks. siguro, i just didn't want to keep my hopes high. but i regret that feeling. now, i'm super happy kasi all our work at sweat has been acknowledged! as in super birthday gift na yun sa akin.

i think the play was not JUST a play. it became a moment for us to bond. a chance for the section to unite and press on towards a common goal. it has been a fun experience. although many made mistakes, everyone learned from the experience. it was an opportunity for everyone to let their cretative juices flow. it was a chance to form new friendships and be strong as challanges face us.Ü some cried after the show kasi they realized that maybe, this was the last thing we were gonna do as a section--even as a batch. and i think it was worth all the hardwork and time.



one thing more, bigla nila akong kinantahan ng happy birthday. imagine my happiness that night.Ü i felt important, loved.



so yesterday was my birthday. it was quite a day. first, i learned na i retained my ranking (pero wala pang extra curricular, english and CAT), i got my WACKY class pix, take note WACKY. we also went to Tagaytay for dinner. we went to this resto called Buon Giorno. sobrang sarap ng food as in heaven. sobrang lamig din. tita al and ninang lu went with us.



it was a happy day. wala lang.

i really wanted to tell more but got more stuff to do.

THANK YOU SA LAHAT NG BUMATI SA AKIN.
YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY!

so stressed out. totally.

i just read a friend's blog. sobrang totoo nung mga sinabi niya. for the past few weeks (maybe two) iisa lang routine ko. go to school, intayan, practice, sigaw, tawa, kain ng lunch, tatamarin, practice ulit, picturan, sigaw, practice, upo, oversee props, practice, break, tawanan, picturan ulit, magpapapirma ng sulat, practice, uwi.

nakakatawa ano?

haha.

sobrang nakakastress-out at sobrang nakakapressure. pero kahit anong nangyayari, in the end, okay pa rin. masaya.Ü weird.

tomorrow's the day!! as in, finally, the end of all this.

super stressed out lang talaga. what's funny is that i've shed more tears for this project compared to the last 5 months of 2006. weird talaga.

to my groupmates who have read this: sorry sa mga times n a sinisigawan ko kayo. gusto ko lang na maging maganda play at nadadala lang ako sa pressure. i'm really sorry. i hope this has been a learning experience for all of us.

drama right? but it's the right thing.

so much has been happening these past few weeks. i've forgotten to give updates.

barkada problems resolved. birthday plans conceived. frustrations increased. happiness passed on.

ewan.

magulo.

pero masaya.

haay...

i really want to tell you guys more...but i'm really super stressed. di ko na ga nilagyan toh ng mga pangdesign.

2 days to go...bday ko na! i've really been panchin these days. believe me. everyone's been telling me that. haha. may reason naman eh.

so far di maganda yung start ng birthday week ko, pero i do believe God wants me to be happy on that day. i know He will give me one good day.

this is my dream guest list for my party:

• barkada (patti, abie, joy, marise, glecy, kai, dianne, diana, moi, emil, bj, mac, moi)
• old barkada (xai, yuki, jers, raffy, mae anne, zai, gem)
• awtr cast (kriezl, john, chano, dianne, rico, mikoy, adrian, vero, kevin)
• tbffs (reg, pam)
• cousins (m. justin, m. wyndell, laisah, shelly, chai, luigi, m. yummy, howie, andrew)
• SENIORS batch 06-07

pero hello? pano naman kaya magkakasundo yang mga yan eh iba-iba sila ng pinanggalingan? saka, limited resources. haha.

anyway, last last night i had the weirdest most kilig dream. it was really weird. i just remembered a few details. take note, few embarassing but kilig details. whatev.

another thing, binili na nila mama at papa ang 2nd and 3rd summer of the sisterhood! syempre, sobrang saya ko. as in binasa ko siya kaagad.

dami ko pa kelangan gawin. don't know where to start. whew.

di pa nagtatapos toh.

haha. dami pa paparating.

good...bad...good...bad...hopefully good this time.

so here i am. busy pero OL pa din. wala lang. just felt like writing something.

i just proved that i have something to give out when it comes to acting. no, seriously. haha. kidding. kanina ba naman kasi, sobrang madrama ako at ayoko kausapin groupmates ko. bakit? sa simpleng reason na they don't have the initiative to practice. i was just so pressured at pissed off. i was ready to burst anytime.

but thank God, they were sensitive enough to listen to me. ngayon, may nakikita na akong pag-asa para sa play namin.Ü

another reason to thank God for, i just finalized my plans for my birthday. 14 days to go!!! anyway, i'm planning to have a party (with lots of food of course!), then a sleepover. what's better is that pinayagan ni papa na magsleepover kahit boys. isn't that great?? now, nobody's going to be left out. haha. i'm just so happy.

though things didn't get so well today, i do hope things get better tomorrow. i've got a long day in front of me...haay.

pray for me. pray for our english play. which reminds me, i got to do some posters. haha.

g'nyt!♥

all good things must come to an end.

why do things have to be so emotional when it comes to friendship? c'mon, it's one of the best gifts anyone can have. why risk it?

i once read a quote that said friends may leave but the friendship never really ends. it just evolves, grows, adapts to the situation.

i've had enough with friends leaving me. don't wanna lose anyone anymore.

i just don't know why things have to grow worse. just when i thought everything's going fine, trouble starts arriving. i've just sunk into the group, now some part of it is falling apart. is it because of me? am i a curse? i hope not to be ... i pray not to be... i wish not to be...

i just wish things would go back to normal. our highschool days would soon be over. i just wish we could clarify things, just before we separate ways.

still wishin'. hopin'. praying for a miracle.Ü

happiness is contagious.Ü boredness also.

"Love is like the wind. You can't see it but you can feel it..."

-a walk to remember

so, if you can't see love, then how can you know you're in love?
ganon lang ba yun? easy as that?

haha. weird.Ü

anyway. today's Sunday. rest day. watch-some-cheesy-movie day. cram-for-assignments day..haay. as always.

i should be doing the tao project right now. kaya lang, i'm too lazy to start doing it. we're doing a slideshow about the Mangyans, their culture, traditions, beliefs, etc. issues and problems also included.

it's supposed to be interesting. but it isn't.

btw, we have a new baby in the house!

meet scotch!

cute right?

so, everyone in our house is going gaga over this cute mixed breed puppy. actually, half-cocker spaniel half-spitz siya. kanina nga, binilhan siya ng bottle, some rags and a bed. imagine? spending so much for this??

siguro na-miss lang nga pamilyang ito magkaroon nga baby sa bahay.

haha.

last Saturday we practiced our play. masaya naman. usapan kasi namin 8:30 pero i arrived 9-something. so as my parusa, i bought xai a coke float kasi siya yung unang dumating. marami naman kaming na-accomplish. props. rehearsals. finally, it has begun.

congratulate me!

fourth quarter's done!!! waah! lapit na graduation...:c

too much happened this week. besides my embarassing if-you-don't-like-our-play-then-why-are-you-here speech, everything was quite ordinary.

till next time. baka malimutan ko pa tapusin mga kelangan ko gawin.

i'm crazy.

♥

screaming inside my head.

i don't know. i try to be happy but i just can't. why do i feel all these pressure around me? why? why...

somebody, please help me. i know mababaw lang tong reason ko, but what am i going to do with our english play? nobody's interested in the story. so i decided to change it, but i just can't find any replacement. haay...this is so hard.

so you guy's don't like a walk to remember, then suggest one please! or baka naman kasi gusto niyo ung sa kabila. eh di lumipat kayo. i'm jus so tired of doing things on my own, plus my insecurities whenever people from the other class would ask me about our plans. c'mon, we're not individually graded here. hello? this is like, our english exam? i'm just so disappointed, this is not how i've foreseen things. everything's just so messed up.

anyway, what's the point of me talking about this crap? nothing. so i better shut up, think. think hard about stuff, and the english stuff. i just hope my head won't burst.

i'm not blaming you guys. i know, i suck being in the director's place. but, please, kahit unting cooperation lang. i just want everything to be alright. kahit 50% lang gumawa ok na sakin. just help me please. i can't carry the burden and do everything all by myself. i'm not superbianca y'know.

what did i do to deserve this?
what else has to be done just to be heard?
screaming inside, can't let it out.
this is too disturbing.
yet time is running.
trying to hold on...
don't want to let go...

it's been a long time...Ü

so finally, i've been able to post again. well, it's been a busy week as in. parang roller coaster nga eh, full of ups and downs. there were some days na i was super happy. there were those times din na i felt that i had the whole world on my shoulder.

1. i'm going to enroll myself in diliman ALONE.

well, that's what mama said. sabi pa niya, she used to laugh dun sa freshmen na kasama pa ang parents nila sa enrolment. pero, kabado ako. ok sana kung LB lang pero hello? diliman? it's just so..far away. kung may kasama lang sana ako, i'll be fine. kahit sino na kakilala ko.

2. a run to remember.

we decided na a walk to remember ang material for our english play. of course, excited ako. i got my wish to be the director. pero now that i'm the director, i don't know what to do. i just feel so insecure na nobody's interested in our play. tapos, i can't manage my committees. i'm feel that i'm not capable anymore. i can't do the stuff i used to do before. i'm getting worse everytime. i feel the pressure, as in super choked up ako. imagine, the playdate is n march 16? with nearly a week and a half of preparations, paano? i just pray that we would be able to make this play great. a play to remember, marked down on CSI history. it's just that before i leave CSI, i just want to leave a mark. gets?

3. latenight to early morning DVD marathons.

haha. i know, i'm killing myself. i've been watching princess hours, lovers in paris and one tree hill for the past few weeks. as in kahit may exam ako or assignment, i'd do them in the morning. lazy me.

4. friends who make you happy. and sad.

i'm just super happy with my present barkada. as in finally, i've released me. alam mo yung feeling when you transfer from one barkada to another, you kinda hold back yourself. but now, i'm perfectll happy. even if our barkada isn't perfect, we are perfect in MY eyes.

pero there are those who make you happy and sad at the same time. well dito ko na sasabihin sama ng loob ko.

****. i know i've been your friend for a long time and i keep telling you na kahit di na tayo magbarkada, i'll always be here for you. but there are those times na parang di mo alam na you hit my weak spot. i'm just asking for a little bit of tact. most of the time, words are more hurtful. i know na mababaw ako masyado. but please, iit's your turn to return the favor. i'm not superbianca. i can't be perfect all the time. i can't handle all things. i have weaknesses too. i just hope na you don't judge me by what i can do or what i can't. these days bring so much pressure to me. ayokong gumive up. i'm not angry at you. i'm just asking for the least consideration okie? i'll still be your manang budhi...whatev. basta, your conscience. and i know that you'll listen to me. di pa rin nagbabago na friend mo ako, bianca from gr.2 John, the first classmate who talked to you on the first day of classes. Mwah!

5. happy days with my father.

i'm so corni i know. but these days, i've been extra happy because our family's complete. plus, masarap lagi ang food! well, iba talaga. iba talaga pag buo ang pamilya. even my friends say that i'm extra happy these days despite the fact that school workis torturing us. haha.

6. Chasing Yuri. asan na nga ba yung cellfone?

finally, it's finished!:) grabe, had a blast shooting that mini-movie. i think we all had a good time, coz everyone had a particular role. now, it's time for editing: the harder part. but i know that it'll work out fine. sobrang laugh trip nga ang nangyari. at first i was kinda insecure kasi the other group had a better story. but now, looking back, i had a great time with my groupmates. i learned a lot and for sure we all did. so what's the point of being down when it was fine all along? haha. i know, i'm insane.

7. JS prom

it sure was memorable. and boring. 20 songs or less for the dance part. anyway, i had a great time with my friends. pics next time.

so much for these updates. more from the prom sa next post.
btw, i've started my countdown: 18 days to go before my day!:)

haha. that's a clue.

there's a bday party this afternoon: habiberday fonsy!:)
kainan na naman toh...pano na swimsuit ko for bora? haha. joke.

till next time.

smooches.Ü