Oo! Ikaw nga!
Nakakainis naman. Lagi ka na lang balakid sa mga nais kong gawin. Ang dami mong pinapahirapan. Umiikot ang mundo sayo, pero anong nangyayari? Lalo lang gumugulo. Bakit ba kasi napakalaki mong problema.
Gusto ko lang naman lumabas kasama ang friends ko. Mag-enjoy. Oo, alam ko. Ako ang may kasalanan. Di kasi ako marunong mag-control. Kaya ayun, nawalan tuloy ako. And sa sitwasyon ngayon, mejo mahihirapan talaga ako. Alam ko naman kung ano ang tama at mali (pina-realize na yun sa akin early on) pero naguguluhan pa rin ako kung anong gagawin ko. Gusto ko talaga sila makasama, pero yun na nga yung conditions.
Kung bakit naman kasi eh.
Hay nako...
PERA!!!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Message sending failed... again.
->I really wish I could talk to you. Clear up some things. Erase whatever happened that summer. 'Cause until now, I still think about you...sometimes. Not because I hate you, or I because I like you. It's because I feel like I've wasted what could have been a very good friendship. But that would be impossible, am I right? It would be too awkward. You're dad always asks me about you. It's funny 'cause we weren't really close. Assuming kasi siya. Haha. Every time he does that, I think about how we would be now (we, as friends) if I just made the right decision that night. But my decision has damaged me and I still feel that bad feeling every time. How do I fix this? I don't really know.
->You have changed big time. I don't know if it's for the better but I'm pretty sure that some people don't like what you have been doing these months. I just want to tell you that you don't have to put up a strong front every time we talk. I don't wanna hear about how cool you have become. You don't need to prove anything to me. I chose to be your friend and I am standing by that decision. I really pray that you find yourself soon.
->I thought that I still felt that kind of closeness, but no, I'm just pretending to feel that feeling. You have become so distant to me. I try to communicate with you but it has become unnatural. I can't relate to you anymore. Actually, I don't know you anymore and in the same way, you don't know me. I still remember you as my bright, sunshine-y best friend but I know that a lot of things have changed. I still anticipate the day that you would come back. I'm excited to share with you what has been happening to me all these years. I really really miss you.
->I don't know why you are SO sensitive. I don't want to be mad at you because you are a really good and trusted friend BUT sometimes you can be so selfish. It's not always that someone will understand you during your childish moments. You are not the only busy person in town. It's not wrong to be sensitive and emotional, but think of what others feel too. You are a very transparent person and I know that something's wrong even if you are not telling me. Don't lie to me.
How I wish I could really tell these things to them.
But I am a coward.:(
->You have changed big time. I don't know if it's for the better but I'm pretty sure that some people don't like what you have been doing these months. I just want to tell you that you don't have to put up a strong front every time we talk. I don't wanna hear about how cool you have become. You don't need to prove anything to me. I chose to be your friend and I am standing by that decision. I really pray that you find yourself soon.
->I thought that I still felt that kind of closeness, but no, I'm just pretending to feel that feeling. You have become so distant to me. I try to communicate with you but it has become unnatural. I can't relate to you anymore. Actually, I don't know you anymore and in the same way, you don't know me. I still remember you as my bright, sunshine-y best friend but I know that a lot of things have changed. I still anticipate the day that you would come back. I'm excited to share with you what has been happening to me all these years. I really really miss you.
->I don't know why you are SO sensitive. I don't want to be mad at you because you are a really good and trusted friend BUT sometimes you can be so selfish. It's not always that someone will understand you during your childish moments. You are not the only busy person in town. It's not wrong to be sensitive and emotional, but think of what others feel too. You are a very transparent person and I know that something's wrong even if you are not telling me. Don't lie to me.
How I wish I could really tell these things to them.
But I am a coward.:(
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