Sorry, vent ko kasi itong blog na ito.
Maybe I should write about work? Come to think of it, I haven't really blogged about anything serious or clear in the past few months. Gulo kasi ng isip ko eh. Sabaw talaga.
Okay.. let's start with that.
So now I work for DZUP 1602, the official radio station of UP Diliman. Everyone's been telling me that it's a good start. My mentors are at an arm's reach. It's like doing daily, hourly radio productions. But instead of getting a grade, I get paid for it. Hindi naman mataas yung pay but I think it's more than enough to maintain my lifestyle. Maintain talaga eh 'no? Hahaha.
I haven't left my comfort zone. It's weird though because now that I think about it, a place becomes a comfort zone not just because of it's familiarity, but because of the people in that place. Most of my batchmates and friends are not in UP anymore. Does that make UP slightly less comfortable for me? Hehe. Gulo.
Each day is unpredictable. Minsan busy to the point na I have to include "eat lunch" and "reply to friends" in my to-do-list.:)) But there are also lots of slow days where I catch myself just watching/listening as time passes by. The good thing about it is that it's usually composed of good days. I think one of the big factors is my DZUP family. Yep, family talaga.:) Work becomes lighter kasi okay yung mga katrabaho. Saluhan talaga ng responsibilities. And the best part ay yung tawanan. SEVERE!
I'm settled and well-adjusted now but the question about whether I made the right decision in choosing DZUP as my entry point to the world of the employed never leaves my mind. Sometimes I ask myself if it would've been better if I left my comfort zone kaagad. But then again, the little things that happen in DZUP convince me that I made the right decision.
I have lots of future plans pa. Lots of considerations. A million what ifs. I want to study again, but not now. Maybe abroad? Depende kung may makukuhang scholarship. I want to work in an NGO. I want to try creatives too. I still want to be a pre-school teacher. And an interior designer. A stylist (HIHI). A budding chef.
I want to be a lot of things. But hey, I'm only 20. Hopefully, God'll give me enough years to figure out what I really what to happen in my life.
'Til then, I'm going to be satisfied in this day-to-day, wait, make that moment by moment discovery of what lies in the future for me.