Because I really don't know. Am I meant to be here? Am I making the right decision by moving out? Will stopping myself from falling for this guy make things easier? Until when should I stay in my comfort zone? Is there something else for me outside? Am I doing the right things?
Walang assurance eh. Yeah, there's that temporary satisfaction, a pleasant feeling deep down inside. Pero yun nga, temporary lang. It's like I can go living like this for a very long time, but not find myself settled.
Maybe that's what I want to achieve. I want to be settled. Settled into a secure job. Settled in a good house I can call home. Settled in a secure relationship. Settled in my capabilities.
Yeah yeah yeah... I know I'm only 20 and maybe I'm trying to rush things. Some people haven't even graduated yet. So should I just consider myself blessed to be in a place like where I am now?
Maybe.