Sunday, January 30, 2011

I can almost hear the siren.


No. Hindi ko na pag-iisipan. I will not over-analyze again.

Stop it, Bianca. You're ruining things. Sabi ni Lifecoach Jane (HAHA), nurture it. NURTURE! Don't be defensive.

Don't be impatient, alright? Things'll happen if they're meant to happen. Feel and act without expecting something in return. Love and just love nga daw diba?

What do I want ba? ...Yun naman pala eh! So stop overanalyzing things! Thesis na lang ang i-overanalyze mo.:3

BTW. This is weird. Talking with two personas? Teehee.

I end this post with some epic lines from the epic movie, Easy A. (Too bad, I couldn't find a clip for this one.)
Olive: Why now? Why are you all of a sudden into me now?
Todd: I don't know. I haven't overanalyzed it like you're about to.


^It was a part of that scene. Wala talaga akong mahanap na picture/clip. Sayang!

So.. Let's get together, yeah yeah yeah.. CHAROT


P.S. I can't breathe. Sipon sucks. (TMI??)
P.P.S. Los Banos is Baguio-cold! Can't sleep with my windows open. Too cold!!!

Outburst #2

I don't get it why everything has to be my fault?

I got pissed off? It's my fault.
I got hurt? Still my fault.

And now I'm the one who has to make amends? Okay. I guess that's the proper thing to do, right? Pero teka lang, have you heard my side? Have you seriously given it some thought?

I don't know. Maybe I'm just tired, stressed, worried and sleepy and hungry right now kaya nasasabi ko lahat ng ito. Maybe when I wake up tomorrow I'll understand their logic.

Aarghhhh! Sorry but I really feel stupid right now.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Waiting period again.

No regrets, just love.
No expectations, just serendipity.

Hala.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Love Thursday Hangover.

Hey.

Tonight's Love Thursday made me think about the current state of my heart department. Okay fine, maybe it's still the same in my case. I haven't moved on. Yeah, there's the acceptance part but I'm still stuck on the same spot. I don't know. Ma'am Jane asked me if I wanted to consult my "issues" with Sir Chito. Nag-isip naman ako in fairness. But I asked her if it was still relevant since it seems na ako na lang naman ang stuck in the situation that my head has created. I don't want irrelevance. Baka mamaya, wasted efforts na naman eto. More of wasted laway. Hahaha.

Honestly, I'm willing to give it another try. But I don't want to expect anymore. Ayoko lang ma-frustrate ulit, that's all. Kaya nga I'm trying to open myself to other distractions/inspirations para ma-divert na yung attention ko. I can't help but wait for him eh. At least I know I'm open to meeting other people.

Well, di ko talaga alam. Basta, excited na akong maging super okay na ang lahat. At least wala nang pretensions ngayon diba?

In the meantime, I'm just going to be happy with whatever status I have right now. Wala naman akong magagawa eh. Hahaha. Might as well make the most of what's already in front of me.:))

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Blogging, the Bianca way.:)

I had the weirdest dream last night involving:
  • A random guy classmate I've sort-of been crushing on since, uh, late December?
  • An arranged marriage.
  • A guy that I think I'm still secretly in love with. Well, not that secretly hihi.
  • Kem's cat Mikmik. And Kem too.
  • May Ann?
  • Menstruation (HAHA)
  • The guys from Boys' Night Out
  • Scary mother-in-law
  • Our house in Laguna
  • ...and almost-thank-God-I-woke-up-before-it-happened sex.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Grabe. Wild! Di ako makaget-over. No explanations. Bahala ka na mag-connect nung mga elements na 'yan. Gusto ko malaman yung ending ng dream. Nakakainis talaga. Bitiiiiiin.

Btw, I'm using my new bebe lapoo now!:) Wala pa rin siyang name, pero marami siyang mga ninong at ninang na gustong magpangalan sa kanya. Hehe. I feel so blessed! Now, I have no reason to say na hindi ko magawa ang mga papers and proposal ko. It's sooooo convenient having this new netbook of mine!:)

I had a "steady lang" week.

Monday. I had a movie and kwentuhan date with Genelie mi lab. Mag-eexpire na kasi yung compli ticket ko for SM cinema so I had to use it! We watched Gulliver's Travels, which was funneh btw. It wasn't as awesome as Kung Fu Panda or School of Rock, pero it wasn't a waste of money at all! After watching the movie, I asked Gen if we could look at the netbooks being sold at the Cyberzone. Grabe, I found a good deal! 19k for an Asus 1015pem!:) I texted mama right away, and she told me to reserve the unit alreds. That good deal+movie night with Gen = AWESOME :D

Tuesday. Finally, natapos din yung PI report namin! And we got a good grade, 95. Not bad right?:) Nakakatawa lang kasi we really had to signal our groupmate, Stan, to cut his report short kasi sobrang habaaa. Imagine, 30+ slides! To think na 1/4 lang yung part niya dun sa report. Haha. It was the usual routine. Kem and I went back to CMC, tapos nakita ko na si Li doon.

Tumambay lang ako the whole day sa lobby. Napaglipasan ng panahon HOHO. Well, I helped puhlaymate Karen pick out a dress for her "play" date. Hihi. I know she enjoyed that "play" date.:) Sinabayan ko si Chi maglunch. Oh, I went to the library pala and saw Rox there. I tried to do some research for thesis. Mejo mahirap kasi I had to write all the info first, then type it at home kasi wala pa ngang laptop. I waited 'til around 6pm kasi I had a jogging date/dinner with Ola. Nakaisang round lang kami sa Acad Oval, then we headed to Mister Kebab and ate shawarma-like food.:) SAYA! I promised that I would go back there, with my OSOm friends in tow. Saya ng bonding over food eh. Heehee.

Wednesday. Late na ako nagising, but I woke up feeling extremely excited (today is ze day!). I did some thesis things. Medyo fail, but I'm praying hard na sana hindi na failure. I only had one class, Guieb pa. Haha. INTENSE. Feeling ko, parang nag-iincrease ang level of understanding ko of the world sa bawat bc160 class ko. Take note, understanding of the world, not intelligence. HAHAHA. Whatevuh.

After Guieb, Kem and I went to SM and picked up new netbook!:) Antagal pala nung proseso ng pag-initialize at pag-setup? So we wasted some time muna sa SM, going inside expensive stores, a.k.a. Power Mac Center, as if afford namin mga gadgets dun. Hahaha. Finally, natapos din ang set-up, but we had to run, as in RUN, to DZUP kasi katropa pa kami for that night. I really enjoyed that episode with Joybabes and Kem. Too bad, Ma'am Jane wasn't there. Well, our topic was about traits of the opposite sex that we would like to have. I listed "freedom sa panliligaw" and "good sense of direction" as the so-called traits that I'd like to have/experience. Hahaha.

As usual, Joy and I had merienda (yes, merienda) afterwards. We had a Nai Cha fix at Chowking Philcoa and played the girl's grossest food game. Yes, that epic game Pam, Reg and I used to play when were 7. Haha! Syempre, veteran na ako sa game na yun so taob sakin si Joy! Haha. She kept telling me how kilig she was with our "chemisty" daw. Whatever. I told her we're a tandem kasi we're really really really good friends. Patay malisya? HAHAHAHA ayan na naman tayo eh.

Thursday. Today was filled with dates! Unromantic, but very much memorable and blissful dates with friends. Today was cheesecake date with Bolle!:) Grabe, antagal na naming pinaplano 'to. Sa wakas! Natuloy din! Perry and JM tagged along. Nakakamiss yung company nila, pati yung mga kwentuhan namin. Guy talk: girls, booze, cars, girls, toys, more girls. Hay nako. Pero di ko inexpect yung feelings talk. Haha. For a while, I thought girl friends ko yung mga kausap ko. I blinked twice and opened my eyes: si Bolle, JM and Perry pala yung nasa harapan ko! Hahaha. Next stop, emo date naman with Bolle. Totoo yung sinasabi nung mga apps, WALANG BASAGAN NG TRIP!:))

That night naman was my McDo date with Betty. Kwentuhan to the max. About her Mr. Pepper (na-discover niya na pwedeng ma-access ng FB account ko yung photos ni Pepper dahil may mutual friend kami HAHA), about my complicated feelings, about being better RC mems, as well as how to manage unmanageable people (WHUT). Level up na ang meetings namin ni Betty! Nakakatuwa, mas may accountability na kami sa isa't isa.:)

Friday. Teka, what happened? Ohhh. Yeah. Hindi ako na-late sa HMHP, but guess what. WALA KAMING FREAKIN' PLAYLIST. Hahaha. Panic mode kami ng slight ni Li. Buti na lang, she had the CC3 demos in her e-mail. I just made an impromptu topic outline, with the topic: How To Make A Name For Yourself (if your a rock band). We were so unprepared! But I think it was our best show to date. I swear! Hahaha. We made sense that day.

Friday was filled with meetings.. productive meetings naman. BC160 meeeting with Eah and Kiarra was filled with awesome ideas! Hopefully may makuha na kaming concept for our dokyu when we consult with Sir Guieb.:) Girl talk with Ate Sars and Mafi was super fun also! From lovelife to sports to theme parks to gadgets.. LAHAT NA! And I also got to talk to Ate Maimai whom I miss very much! Sayang, wala si Gen and Abe.

After girl talk, I rushed to CMC for thesis consultation and DZUP meeting with Ma'am Rose! Feeling ko nawawalan na siya ng pag-asa, pero ako, may pag-asa pa rin! Everytime a door closes, God makes a window open naman eh. Hopefully things will go on smoothly from now on.

I wasn't able to go home this weekend. First weekend in QC, hello! Haha. It was such a lazy day, pero may nagawa naman ako. I'm praying for good surprises this week. Answered prayers too!:)

Congratulations! Natapos mo basahin ang looooong blogpost ko! Hahaha. Good night!:*