it's been a long time...Ü

so finally, i've been able to post again. well, it's been a busy week as in. parang roller coaster nga eh, full of ups and downs. there were some days na i was super happy. there were those times din na i felt that i had the whole world on my shoulder.

1. i'm going to enroll myself in diliman ALONE.

well, that's what mama said. sabi pa niya, she used to laugh dun sa freshmen na kasama pa ang parents nila sa enrolment. pero, kabado ako. ok sana kung LB lang pero hello? diliman? it's just so..far away. kung may kasama lang sana ako, i'll be fine. kahit sino na kakilala ko.

2. a run to remember.

we decided na a walk to remember ang material for our english play. of course, excited ako. i got my wish to be the director. pero now that i'm the director, i don't know what to do. i just feel so insecure na nobody's interested in our play. tapos, i can't manage my committees. i'm feel that i'm not capable anymore. i can't do the stuff i used to do before. i'm getting worse everytime. i feel the pressure, as in super choked up ako. imagine, the playdate is n march 16? with nearly a week and a half of preparations, paano? i just pray that we would be able to make this play great. a play to remember, marked down on CSI history. it's just that before i leave CSI, i just want to leave a mark. gets?

3. latenight to early morning DVD marathons.

haha. i know, i'm killing myself. i've been watching princess hours, lovers in paris and one tree hill for the past few weeks. as in kahit may exam ako or assignment, i'd do them in the morning. lazy me.

4. friends who make you happy. and sad.

i'm just super happy with my present barkada. as in finally, i've released me. alam mo yung feeling when you transfer from one barkada to another, you kinda hold back yourself. but now, i'm perfectll happy. even if our barkada isn't perfect, we are perfect in MY eyes.

pero there are those who make you happy and sad at the same time. well dito ko na sasabihin sama ng loob ko.

****. i know i've been your friend for a long time and i keep telling you na kahit di na tayo magbarkada, i'll always be here for you. but there are those times na parang di mo alam na you hit my weak spot. i'm just asking for a little bit of tact. most of the time, words are more hurtful. i know na mababaw ako masyado. but please, iit's your turn to return the favor. i'm not superbianca. i can't be perfect all the time. i can't handle all things. i have weaknesses too. i just hope na you don't judge me by what i can do or what i can't. these days bring so much pressure to me. ayokong gumive up. i'm not angry at you. i'm just asking for the least consideration okie? i'll still be your manang budhi...whatev. basta, your conscience. and i know that you'll listen to me. di pa rin nagbabago na friend mo ako, bianca from gr.2 John, the first classmate who talked to you on the first day of classes. Mwah!

5. happy days with my father.

i'm so corni i know. but these days, i've been extra happy because our family's complete. plus, masarap lagi ang food! well, iba talaga. iba talaga pag buo ang pamilya. even my friends say that i'm extra happy these days despite the fact that school workis torturing us. haha.

6. Chasing Yuri. asan na nga ba yung cellfone?

finally, it's finished!:) grabe, had a blast shooting that mini-movie. i think we all had a good time, coz everyone had a particular role. now, it's time for editing: the harder part. but i know that it'll work out fine. sobrang laugh trip nga ang nangyari. at first i was kinda insecure kasi the other group had a better story. but now, looking back, i had a great time with my groupmates. i learned a lot and for sure we all did. so what's the point of being down when it was fine all along? haha. i know, i'm insane.

7. JS prom

it sure was memorable. and boring. 20 songs or less for the dance part. anyway, i had a great time with my friends. pics next time.

so much for these updates. more from the prom sa next post.
btw, i've started my countdown: 18 days to go before my day!:)

haha. that's a clue.

there's a bday party this afternoon: habiberday fonsy!:)
kainan na naman toh...pano na swimsuit ko for bora? haha. joke.

till next time.

smooches.Ü