tired and heavy??

decisions.
sadness.
new beginnings.
hardships.

they are all part of the journey we have:

LIFE.

i'm the one who's running my life..
i decide.
i decide.

actually, i'm not the one who's running my life.
it's HIM up there.

yeah, i have free will. But HE has a perfect plan for my life. WAY better than my plan. And by faith i just have to claim that. put my trust on that promise.

why am talking like this? wala lang... i just feel so tired and heavy (but i am heavy...lol). why does life have to be serious? i'm tired of feeling the pressure everyon gives to me. being on top of my class, kelangan i-maintain yung status ko. yun ang mahirap. haay... hindi naman sa ayaw kong #1. ang sarap ngang narerecognize mga abilities ko eh.

but still, life is life.
and life's the way we make it.;)

wala akong pasok. wee! rest. relax. enjoy. go see a movie (weheh!).
kaya heto na naman ako. nagbababad na naman sa harap ng pc.
nagsasagot ng mga surveys. haay.

nabasa ko kanina sa isang profile, Filipinas daw are the prettiest people. why? kasi we are mistures of different races: negritos, spanish, american, chinese at kung ano pa. that's really a compliment diba?Ü

ok. enough of this blogging.
i still have many things to do.

till my next post...Ü

♥

so.

i've been blogging for three consecutive days i think.

net addict.

hay naku.

well, i hope this stops. i have a new resolution. because i'm becoming so much of a net addict, i'll limit myself to doing thes senseless stuff to weekends. syempre acads ang focus during weekdays.

kanina, we ate at kamayan sa palaisdaan. sarap as in busog! kasama namin sina tita auring, tita jomil, tito ken, kim and kyle. it was sort of a goodbye lunch whatever you call it. ang saya lalo na nung nasa seesaw kami. tinatry namin ibalance. sa sobrang bigat nga namin, nagshake na yung seesaw. ang saya talaga! sarap pa nung food...lol Ü

sana palaging ganun... you tend to forget your worries for a while.

after 10 years, ngayon lang lumabas yung result sa tickle. music match ko daw si Alicia Keys! waw.

haha...keep on dreaming biancs!Ü

btw, na mention ko bang may photoshop na kami? haha! finally...now i can make my pix extra funky for myspace,friendster,blogs, etc.

12 palang friends ko sa myspace. poor me. ang friendster ko parang 175 friends. mas marami kasi kilalako sa friendster eh. so what? di naman paramihan diba?

recently, i've been addicted to the koreanovela Princess Hours. ang cute-cute kasi tapos super nakakakilig pa. there's this common girl, janelle, and this Über rich prince, gian. they had this arranged marriage due to an agreement that their grandfathers have made. so now, they're struggling each day living together. tapos, slowly they start to care for each other. syempre di mawawala yung third parties. kay gian, there's this ballerina and hot chick in school, Monique tapos kay janelle, the supposedl crowned prince, troy. can't wait to watch the whole series! i'm planning to buy the DVD but...

the DVD store in crossing was raided!
haay...pag minalas ka nga naman.

oink!oink!

babush.♥

finally!

i've finally figured out what kind of friend i am.


i'm the type who approaches you as soon as i see that we have a connection or we have something in common.


i will remain close to you if you reciprocate my actions. pag binalewala mo ako, i would drift away from you.



i remain close to people who value me.


i'm very sensitive. but is till prefer friends to tell me what is really wrong with me.


memories linger too long in my head.


i don't forget faces. pag kilala kita, mas gusto ko na ikaw ang unang lumapit sakin. tapos, saka lang ako nagwawarm up.


haay...the past is too complicated.
that is why i must face what is laid in front of me.



Tickle tells me that my signature color is pink chiffon. here's the whole article:

There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.

While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!

is that for real??

i hope so.

♥

i'm having a hard time explaining myself.

things to thank God for in 2006:

• good food...and lots of them to add.




• good grades...still alive and kickin'!




• no loved ones died.;)




• my lolo and lola celebrated their 50th anniversary.




• cheers to family vacations in Bacolod!




• to bloghopping!




• for myspace, friendster and YM: helping me reach out to my cousins.




• for butterflies.




• for patti, joy, abie, marise, glecy, erika, diana, dianne, minji, emil, bj, mac, mark, moi, and the others in the barkada




• for jers, my very emotional friend.;)




• for xai, yuki, zai, gem, and raffy. . .




• for kriezl, besties forever!




• TBFF memories, a bond which will forever unite reg, pam and me.




• papa who works so hard for us.




• for review masters...thanks for helping me for the UPCAT




• for emil, lending me all those pieces!




• for my teachers, for inspiring me everytime they teach us.




• for mama. for understanding me in my weirdest times.




• yaya, for lending me her earrings...:) and for faithfully being with us for almost 15 years.




• for reg, making me open my mind to many things. AND introducing me to relient k.




• for lipgloss, shimmer powder and perfume. cheers!




• for bouquets and corsages




• for proms and acquaintance parties




• for wisdom




• for Tickle




• for abt ur luv...reliving G-mik and tabing ilog




• for ABS-CBN's primetime bida and all those kilig moments.♥




• for cute classmates...inspiration to do certain things.




• for google news...lahat ng chismax about lindsay lohan alam ko!




• for PBB. enuf said.




• for extra time to daydream




• for limewire




• for a new fone even if it's not mine




• for a free globe sim




• for people who admire you even if you're unworthy of it.




• for LOVE




• for giving me a good year; full of trials but still, it was a spectacular year. and for making the past year so wonderful that all i can't count and list all things to thank God for.

i know...it was quite a long list. and now, i have to face 2007. the year of the pig *snort*. haha.

i've finally accepted that no matter how hard i try to explain things to people some just wouldn't understand me. you just need to explain yourself. and be friends. not as close as before but pure friends. thanks jers for making me realize that..;)

friday na! nung thursday lang nagresume classes namin...haha! i looooooove this feeling.

i miss bebe...:)

mwah!♥

2007 na!!!:) (part 1)

the year of the pig. haha! lol...



the past year has been, well...SPECTACULAR! it has been memorable, it has been fun. a lot of things learned over the past year.


last year new year's celebration was a blast. we were complete. enough said. i attended the prom for the first time, i wasn't the over-all achiever (but i felt happy anyways...), we were two-time champs in our cheerdance competitions, i was able to communicate with friends abroad and long-lost cousins whom i really haven't seen or talked to for years, i had chicken pox, i took the college entrance tests, i met a LOT of people, i finally found my niche in the barkada, i had some unfinished business resolved, a lot of crushes passed by, still single and NBSB (proud of it!♥), i started this blog, still on the journey to know myself, know God better and by God's grace, still continuing to survive.

whew! what a year! full of memories. once present, now history...

i had 5 resolutions last year...i think only three of them were done.
so here's my new batch of resolutions.

1. i promised papa that i would text him whenever i can. anong klase ba akong anak, di marunong makipag-usap sa ama? well, di na excuse na ubos ang load ko dahil globe na mga tao ngayon. sana isa nalang ang mobile network sa Pilipinas para wala nang papalit-palit ng sim. haay. lagi nga ako pinagsasabihan ni mama na sinasayang ko lang ang money ko sa load. what can i do? someone, give me load bilis!!!:)




2. gusto ko man o hindi, kelangan talaga toh gawin. kashit kahit wala pa ito sa bokabolaryo ko at nabubulol na ako sa tagalog ko, kelangang-kelangan ko na talaga magpapayat. so bye chocolate my love...see you whenever i see you. haha!:)




3. enough boy-craziness. believe it or not, i'm quite boy-crazy. haha...nakakahiya man. i believe us girls have this certain period na we tend to think about boys way TOO much. bakit, same with them naman din ah? right guys?




4. bawas-bawasan hindi lang ang taba kundi pati na rin ang pagbababad sa internet. haha! mag-dotA nalang...ngeeks! like any normal teen of my generation, i'm also addicted to blog-hopping, friendster, myspace (kahit na 10 friends palang...haha!), blogging, uploading pictures, tickle and millsberry. i know...what a waste time that's too precious again, too be wasted. huh?




5. para mabitin naman ang nagbabasa nito, secret na yung iba. for me and my eyes alone. *winks

i can't believe it, i managed to have an 11th entry at this blog! quite an achievement for someone like me who has a hard time trying to be consistent in things like keeping records. in other words: TAMAD.

i know, nobody's reading this blog. but who cares? i'm having fun anyway. it's fun seeing your posts on the web. anyway, sa mga napadpad sa blog na ito, MARAMING SALAMAT! si niyo alam kung paano niyo ako pinasaya...;)

hindi pa tapos itong new year's post ko. unang yugto palang ito.

haha..i'm so corny. i know.

Happy New Year everyone! and have a good one...;)

God bless! ♥