getting ready...almost.

kanina, i've been posting comments, or should i say "musta na?" statements sa mga friendster profiles ng friends ko. siguro, i just really miss them. imagine, you're with them almost 10 hours a day, 5 (sometimes 6) times a week, and about 10 months for a year tapos all of a sudden, you're just too busy or too occupied to see them.

haay.

I MISS YOU GUYS.

yes, lahat kayo.

for the past few weeks i've been going to diliman. trying to make myself familiar of the place. syempre, at the same time trying to make new friends. pero iba pa rin talaga.

yes. i got accepted sa dorm which is a really big blessing. as in ang laki ng nabawas sa mga expenses. that also means na i will be mingling (tama ba?) with a certain group of people. i do hope i adjust really really fast.

so far i know about less than 10 people. some of them i met during the orientation. yung iba sa registration. mejo ilang pero parepareho lang naman kami ng pinagdadaanan so iba yung instant connection. yung isa nga nakasabay pa namin for lunch eh. i really hope i meet them again.

i remember telling myself na kung nasa lb lang ako, i could be by myself or with my friends. kasi since we're only freshmen, marami samin kasama pa ang parents sa orientation at registration. sabi nga nung isang professor samin, "sana next semester, kayo nalang mag-eenroll sa sarili niyo. di niyo na kasama parents niyo ha..." sana nga. i think staying by myself at diliman would do me good. imagine, i would depend on no one except on myself and of course, si God. yes, anjan sina lola, one ride away pero syempre, i don't want to abuse the privileges of my connections. one of the purposes kung bakit gusto ko mag-aral dun ay para matuto maging independent.

as i said before, ibang-iba environment dun. not just the natural environment ha, environment in general. compared to lb na probinsyang-probinsya, doon, napaka...ewan! basta.

sometimes nga, i wonder what got into my head na ginusto kong pumasok dun. me? homebody? very close to my family? basta, it is so out of my character.

maybe God DOES have a purpose sa stay ko dun. anyway, i'm the only one who makes a big deal out of it.

it just sucks na wala yung iba kong friends dun. i mean, i'm really looking forward to the new experiences but iba pa rin kapag friends mo yung kasama mo. i just can't help but be jealous dun sa mga taga manila na may instant friends dun. how i wish. how i wish.

how i wish talaga.

ako pa, na talagang pag na attach, mahirap na i-detach.gets?

haay.

sabi nga ng kuya ni kriezl (isa pa toh na namimiss ko), "you learn who your true friends are in high school." pero diba that doesn't mean you can't find new friends in college? new friends who can also possibly become TRUE friends.

i just pray that God would give me the strength to face new things as i enter college.

hay naku. so much for these serious stuff.

there's one more thing that i'm looking forward to now that i'm entering college:

SHOPPING!

syempre i need new clothes, new things, new school supplies, new ano, new ganyan, new whatever! haha. just kidding. just the basics.

since i've poured out some part of my heart in this post, it's time to sleep.

...zzz